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Edward was gone… and I couldn't think. I know it has been a couple of months but every time I look, walk, and think about him. My stomach turns inside out and I get a feeling that I cant even begin to explain.

It was a weird day, as if I could tell something big was going to happen. I was walking in the forest, thinking about him. When all of a sudden I see something fly by me and I knew immediately that it wasn't anything human. All of a sudden I hear a low voice

"Bella, Bella, Bella… Long time no see" and I said "whose there"

"Oh just an old friend, I'm sure you remember James?"

"yes-s" I stuttered

"Then you will remember me, Victoria"

As soon as I heard that name I ran as fast as I could even though I knew it would do know good. Edward wasn't there to protect me and either was Jacob. I kept running though but 2 seconds later I see her standing in front of me

"I've been wanting to do this for some time now Bella, where is your precious protector"

"ummm…"

"Oh well I heard he left you, so that leaves me with a very important decision, should I just kill you or should I make you one of us?" she asked

"Hmmm I think that I will have to make you one of us, just because you will have to think about him and live in agony forever"

At that moment she leaned in and bit me…

90 years later

It was 90 years later, and yes I was still living without him. I still thought about him when ever I was alone. I had found myself a coven with me, Gabriella, who was known as Gabby, and Samantha, who was known as Sam. We were very close and like him we were vegetarians. Gabby was just a hilarious person, she was always making jokes but was a very serious person when needed. Sam was quiet, she knew just what to say at the right times.

As of right now we were living in Juneau Alaska. We went to school at Juneau High School but we had been there for 3 years.

"Bella I think it is time for us to move soon." Sam stated.

"I agree" Gabby said

"Yea its time but where should we go?"

"Seattle"

"No we were just there" I said "how about Forks Washington?"

"Forks?" Gabby said incredulously

"Are you sure that that is a good idea?" Sam agreed

"Yes I am positive I think that we should move there, I need to go back, I know it sounds crazy but I've got to do it"

"Okay if you're sure, I'm thinking we should move within the next month."

"Sounds good to me" I said.

I know that I shouldn't be doing this, I was just bringing painful memories upon myself, but I just had to do this. I am hoping that being there without him will help me get over him.

The sooner we leave the better. I thought to myself. I need to go hunt.

"Gabby, Sam. Do you want to go hunt?"

"yea sure" they said.

And we were off.

During my hunt I thought a lot about the decision I just made, about the pain I would have to go through. Mostly I thought about what it would be like to go into the same classrooms that he had been in, the ones that held many already faded memories. I knew I would never forget him but at some points I wish I could. I knew that this would help me overcome the suffering I went through on a daily basis.

I went back to hunting and me and my sisters were having a good time.

"Are you ready Bella?" Gabby asked me.

"As ready as I'll ever be" I stated because we had just decided to leave that night instead of within the next month.

"This will be a good thing Bella there is no need to worry." Sam said.

I knew Sam was usually right but I just wasn't sure myself. I wasn't sure I could handle this and yet here I was about to go face the place that the love of my eternity and I had met and fallen in love.