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"How very selfish..." She could hear her whispering sometimes, as if right beside her, close to her ear. Yes, she supposed, that was the difference between the two; Naminé saw things exactly how they were and Kairi liked to sugar coat.
"It's not selfish," She'd reply, knees tucked close to her chest, peeking through her limbs to gaze at the stars. Her room was dark and littered with drawings she didn't make consciously. The nobody could take control as Kairi slept.
"It's always been about your own feelings, hasn't it? What you wanted, what you thought was right. You only ever took one other into consideration…" It hurt when she'd do this. Kairi's self doubt would seize her. She'd want to run away from it. Escape those bad feelings only Naminé could give her.
"Of course you want to leave…spare yourself of pain, not think about anyone else…" She'd claw her head, tear at her hair. Naminé was in her mind. Maybe it'd hurt her. In the end only Kairi would feel the stinging. "I'm in your heart, remember?" Naminé would remind her.
"Though," The voice lost its edge. "You are aware of it. You know what you're doing and you stop yourself…I suppose that's me now, isn't it? I'm your rationality. I'm your good qualities. I'm you, in a way, or I once was…But now, I'm separate. I wonder, how would you be without me?" Her teeth ground together and tears threatened to fall. "Now, now, Kairi," The voice was soothing now. If Naminé was tangible, she might brush her hair back, stroke her cheek. "You aren't all bad. You aren't bad at all. Everyone has these moments. Even a Princess of Heart. Well I don't. But then…" A shudder. No longer the need to be whole but to be her own person. "I'm a nobody."
"I'm sorry." Kairi would cry. "I'm so sorry…" The bad moments would always end like this. Kairi apologizing for giving Naminé what she had wanted. Unity. But, no more. And it was then that Kairi would resent Naminé. And it was then that she wished Naminé would leave, or fall silent, or just become part of her again.
And it was then that Naminé would chide in.
"How very selfish."
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