A/N: Hello everyone, I am proud to present to you my new story; New York State of Mind! I apologize for the short length of this chapter. The following chapters will be much longer, since this is basically the introduction to the story. I hope you enjoy it. I will make an attempt to update this story every Sunday.

- Cassie xoxo

Why did things have to be so damn complicated? Why couldn't things just be simple and easy for once? That's all Santana wanted to know as she silently sat thinking alone in her college dorm. Fresh off her return from Lima, things just weren't feeling right. Being back in lame old Louisville, Kentucky didn't have the same feeling as it did the first time arriving here.

Yet again, things weren't the same either. Santana was still emotionally drained after deciding that she needed to take things slow with Brittany. Now she didn't even know exactly where they stood.

It hasn't even been 24 hours and regrets were already swimming around aimlessly in her head. Only now did she realize breaking things off with Brittany may have made things even worse than they were before. Screw other 'attractions' or whatever the fuck they were, Brittany is the only one for her and the only one there ever will be. What the hell was she thinking? Now not only did her life have no set direction, she just shoved her beacon of light off to the side like it was some useless thing on her dresser.

Santana couldn't help but think about how things could be different. What if she didn't pull that 'on a break' shit and she and Brittany remained how they were? Santana tried shaking the thoughts out of her head and reminded herself why she called things off in the first place; because Brittany needed to be free. She needs to make her own decisions and focus on her repeated senior year above all else.

The fact of it doesn't make Santana any happier or less lonely of course, but at least her intentions were in the right place. That's all that really matters, right?

Breaking out of her thoughts, Santana spotted the cash her mother gave her back in June to chase her dreams in New York City.

Suddenly memories from being in Lima this past week flooded her head. Santana had forgotten about the brief encounter she shared with Blaine. He had explained quickly about what happened between him and Kurt in New York City and how he completely screwed things up between them by hooking up with some dude named Eli. She had felt bad for Blaine of course, but that still doesn't me he wasn't at fault. Santana couldn't even imagine cheating on Brittany with anybody, let alone with some dude from Facebook. Santana shuddered at the thought. She had felt worse for Kurt, being hundreds of miles away from his boyfriend and finding out he had been cheated on with some random dude. Now that's gotta suck, no matter who's point of view.

Something dawned on Santana as she thought about the problems between the troubled couple; like Brittany and herself, they were also suffering with the irritating long distance. Santana wasn't alone in this dreary feeling of separation. God knows Kurt probably had it worse than she did right now; him and Blaine weren't even on speaking terms. Yet again, he did have Rachel with him over in New York and she was stuck alone in Kentucky with absolutely nobody.

Santana looked over again at the stash of money just lying on the dresser which seemed to be calling her name. New York was still just as much as a possibility as it was four months ago. Who said she had to stick with this stupid cheerleading scholarship anyway? Yeah it was fun, but where the hell was cheerleading going to get her in the grand scheme of things? Santana had no interest in cheering for a major league football team. That was just boring as hell and completely pointless. Santana was made for greater things than that. New York's door was still wide open, now more than ever. In New York she wouldn't even have to be alone. Even though Porcelain and Berry aren't the greatest company of all time, they were still her friends, and they would support her through everything she did.

And on the bonus side, they also will be visiting Lima constantly, which means more opportunities for her to visit and spend time with Brittany.

The more Santana thought about it, the more excited she grew. Now was the moment, she realized. Now is the time more than ever to begin the rest of her life.

Determined, Santana picked up her phone off the corner of her dresser and dialed a number she had rarely ever used, the decision of her future held firmly in mind. The dial tone rang and rang, and eventually someone on the other line answered.

"Hello?" came a familiar slightly feminine voice from the other line, and Santana broke into a huge smile at the welcoming sound.

"Hey Kurt, it's Santana. There's something I need to talk to you about."

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