A/N This is the first chapter of my Jacob Fanfic, so far its my first on here. Hope you enjoy.
Disclamer: I do not own these characters. But Stephenie Meyer does own them.
Chapter One: Realization
Miserable. About 150 miles from La Push and I was still miserable. I mean, an invitation to their wedding? That filthy bloodsucker knows what he is doing, he is trying to make me feel this way. Yeah he knew that would drive me insane. That heartless, cold, stupid son of a bit—
Aw, who am I kidding, the guy is a freakin' angel. The whole time I had the injury from our little "war" he was there by my bed, along with his leader helping me recover. Even though I was after his girl and tried to make him feel as miserable as possible he was still there. He deserves Bella, and me realizing this is probably what made me jet out of there. I lost her.
I had stopped at this point, stopped running that is. I knew running away wasn't the answer, its just I couldn't deal with all those thoughts of my pack going on in my head, good thing Sam told them to leave me alone. Stupid, again I was being stupid; I have done a lot of stupid reckless things the past year or so. And I know exactly why. Love.
Why is it that it has to be so damn hard? Bella, my first love, maybe my only love, just picturing her made me feel warmer inside already, although it was freezing and pouring rain at the moment. I can't believe I did all those things to her, turning her into Charlie for riding the motorcycles, knowing he would freak. Then making her kiss me, I mean COME ONE JAKE knock some sense into yourself. Great now I'm talking to myself. I'm a mess, and I might as well start trying to fix that. It's been only three days, and I'm starving. Man what I wouldn't give for a burger right now. Plus this rain is coming down so hard I can even feel it through my thick fur. And I smell bad, and I really want a shower. Well I've got no reason to keep running from all of this, I'm just gonna go back and deal with my problems like a real man.
I sniffed around until I could figure out which way was south, then I started to run that way. Might as well alert the pack that I'm heading home. I thought deeply and tried to connect with my pack more than a hundred miles away.
"Anyone at home?"I thought in my mind laughing at myself as I did, someone had to be on patrol.
"JAKE?!?"Another voice shouted excitedly in my mind, man this is weird sometimes.
"Yeah Paul its me, listen I'm heading home, do me a favor and let the guys know?" I asked hopefully just getting a quick okay and goodbye, oh but we know that life is not THAT easy here in the world of Jacob Black.
"Wait Jake's coming back?" A female voice asked in my mind. Of course Leah already knew, she can read my mind I mean come on….but of course, girls, making life more complicated.
"Yeah I am Leah, so let the others no, and do me a favor, no mind contact with me until I get home alright? I really need a little bit more time to think for myself." I asked hopefully, and it was true I did need some time to myself in my own head.
"Sure thing Jacob, just as long as your coming back, right Leah?" Paul answered back.
"Um, yeah I won't bug into your thoughts until you get here." Leah replied unhappily, probably disappointed she isn't getting in on the gossip between me and Bella.
"Alright see you in a couple days or so then" I said, hoping that I will be able to make it within that timeframe, and hoping that they have tried to ignore my thoughts. It shouldn't really be a problem to make it back within that time with my long wolf legs. Plus I just slept this morning so I am full of energy to burn off.
I ran for about 20 or so miles then stopped for a water break at a nearby pond. I looked in the water and saw the reflection of a massive wolf. Sometimes I still can't believe that those eyes are my own staring back at me, or that those long ears and massive snout belong to me. I still can't believe I'm not that normal kid I was two years ago. I've changed so much sometimes I don't even recognize what I'm doing. When I get home I need to be a happier Jacob, a nicer Jacob, just like the old one. No matter what it takes, when I get home, I will find myself again.
A/N: Alright well hope you enjoyed and please review I always like to know if I am doing good or did something wrong, next update might not be for a few days, I just might now have the chance to get on for a few days. Thanks so much.