(He reached his hand towards me, the skin crinkling between his eyes)
Drowning drowning drowning,
Drowningdrowningdrowning,
How do you drown when you're still
Swimming.
(He opens his lips, chapped from the salt water, to say something.)
Everyone is dead.
They killed everyone
I am dead.
They killed me
(His mouth forms the words, but they're carried away. By the wind, the voices of the crowd, my screaming.)
He had such beautiful eyes
Before they gouged them out.
He had such beautiful hands,
Before they ripped them off.
He had such a beautiful soul,
Until they pulled it out,
And reassembled him,
A killer.
(I had started screaming, like a barely-controlled hurricane, the peacekeepers had hurried to grab me before I could escape)
I used to be a painter.
I used to be an artist.
I used to be a person.
(Later he comes to find me on the train. He pulls me into his lap, my head resting on his shoulder.)
Reassembled
Resrewed
Reformed
Reborn.
Have I been reborn?
(I am confused, I don't understand where I am.)
I didn't mean to kill her.
But she had ripped him apart.
The boy from my district.
The sweet boy with the curly hair.
There was blood everywhere
After she had finished.
All I could see was blood.
I couldn't see her through the blood.
I didn't mean to kill her.
I didn't mean to kill you.
Please leave me alone.
(I am convinced that I'm still in the arena. I start to scream for him, even though he's right there.)
The water glistens,
Pretty.
Why is
it red Finnick?
Why did,
You leave me here,
Finnick?
Finnick?
Finnick?
(It feels like he isn't there though. All I can see are the voices in my head.)
His voice is in my head.
It won't let go.
Annie you could,
have saved me.
Annie you should
have saved me.
Annie didn't you,
fall in love,
with me?
You said you did.
(So what's with you and Finnick then?)
(No, sorry, that's wrong. That happened after I left the arena. I'm sorry, I'll try again.)
I think that I'm going crazy, I think that I'm insane.
Maybe I just have L-O-V-E on the brain.
(He finds me on the train and asks me my name. I think he'd known my brother in school.)
Where am I Finnick?
Why is everything blue?
Won't you come for me soon?
(He asks me about school. He promises to bring me home in one piece. I believe him. I didn't know then.)
God im in the water and im so lucky its water im a good swimmer so good all the other competitors arent they must be dead i can do this and i can win and i can see finnick again if god has merc-
(He was so sad he couldn't keep that promise. He had nightmares for months. His tears were salty.)
I don't know where I am.
It's dark through my eyelids.
And dark when I close them.
(I sorta like that though. I got to help him for a change.)
help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help
(Oops, I skipped forward again. Maybe you should just ask Finnick to tell you.)
I'm never going
To go.
They're never going to let
Me go.
But all I want is
To leave.
I swear I won't kill anyone ever again.
(It's hard to tell a story when you're mad you know.)
I said that I'm sorry.
I promise I'm sorry.
Please let me go.
I didn't mean to you know.
(I'm sorry.)
I'm sorry.