They order in.

Neither of them is in the mood to face the world and they're too tired to cook. She keeps the conversation going until the food gets there, just enough to distract them both.

(The truth is they're the least bit distracted from the fact that Alex was almost shipped off into space and they almost lost this. Them)

Alex is trying to be funny.

She's trying so hard for the night to go as smoothly as it possibly can that, when she says it, it takes her about ten seconds to realize that Maggie has gone so very still next to her.

"I've gone to another planet before, you keep this up and I might just go again."

It was supposed to be funny, it would be any other day, but Maggie isn't laughing and neither is she for that matter, and for a minute they just stare at each other.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean-"

"It's okay, I just-"

They lock eyes and they want to smile, but the will to take that image of their minds, of Alex in another planet, lost, trying to find her way back home, is impossible to shake.

When faced with life and death situations in the past, Maggie would fuck it out of her system.

Was it with her or someone from the force, a friend or a desperate call from her family at two in the morning, she'd go to a bar and release the stress in the healthiest way she could find.

(She'd go for the bottle at the beginning, but she had a family history and, really, she enjoyed sex way better than being drunk.)

But that night when they went to bed, she just wanted to hold her.

She wakes in a jolt, but Maggie is already there, holding her tight, and Alex wonders if she had any type of sleep at all so far.

"Dream?"

"Yeah." She moves so she can see Maggie's face and she can feel her heart slowing to a normal rhythm. "I was so scared." She says in a small voice, because she doesn't want Maggie to think she didn't believe in Kara, because she always knew her sister would do anything to save her, but in that moment, she can't help it, she was crazy scared.

"I know, sweetie." And not for the first time, Maggie thanks whoever is responsible for putting Kara into their lives, into Alex's live.

"I don't know what I'd do if-"

"You're here."

And she kisses Maggie because, somehow, in these past weeks kissing her is almost as necessary as oxygen to her.

When they wake up again, it's morning.

They get coffee and get ready for work together, like always. Their new normal.

They part ways at the lobby, a quick goodbye kiss because they're already late, and not five seconds later she gets a text from her.

I'd go looking for you anywhere, Danvers.

There's not a question on her mind about her response.

Ride or die, babe.