This Starry Night(NatsumeX Mika)
Noise, fire, the stinging reek of burning. People scrambling, escaping for their sear lives. Run! Run, get out of there! I shouted louder. But amidst the sea of red, I spot her on the ground, her hands sprawled at the side. I stood in horror as I took in this image. I saw her eyelids fluttering, I saw her lips trembling slightly, I saw her body contorting in extreme pain, and I again saw the pair of white hands stained in red. Blood. Tainted her pair of sacred hands. Tears welled in my eyes, blocking my vision for a while. A tear leak out and memories of the past overwhelmed me as I collapsed onto the ground…
I would never forget her pair of hands, no matter how hard I tried. It was this pair of loving hands that first stroked the ice that had consumed my soul in the past; that illuminated the dark solitude that I had existed on; that gave me warmth and wiped away my tears, all the while saying that "everything would be alright" when I was bullied; that had pushed me away when the explosion hit us, only in the hope of protecting her loved ones and yet neglecting her own safety. This lifeless pair of hands now dangling in front of me was once so delicate yet string and which belongs to one who only thinks of the happiness of others and never for herself. This pair of hands had managed to shield me, but had failed her instead. They had failed to catch her when she was hurled up into the sky and even after she was flung back down. The ground shook when her fragile frame hit the hard concrete cement with a thump that stopped my heart in its tracks. Only then, did I realize that I had cruelly taken away the life in her hands. If not for me, she would not have been the one lying there.
Run! I screamed at her, tears running down my face. But she remained motionless, only for a streak of crimson that trickled past her lips and onto the ground engulfed in red. Drip, drip, drip…the momentum was driving me crazy! No! It can't be! Tell me now! Tell me that everything was just a nightmare! Please! Wake up now! Don't just lie there and ignore me! Say something, you stupid, say something…My voice became hoarse and I broke down. I flung myself next to her, her cold body next to mine and clenched her hands in mine. It was chilly, unlike the usual warmth that emitted from her normal bubbly self. Even the smile was gone, replaced with a painful groan. A tiny voice told me to let go, but my stubborn mind refused to give in to that thought. No, I won't cry, I won't come to terms with this cruel fact. I don't want to cry. Because of these hands that had protected me all these while, I willed myself to become stronger. I want to grow up faster, so that I will never have to let go of these hands and so no one can snatch you away from me anymore. I want so much to become your pair of hands, so that I can be your pillar of strength and protect you just as you had protected me before. So, please don't leave me alone. Let me hold on to your hand forever under this starry night, where only you and I exist…