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A/N: Inspired when in a season 4 ep, Kerry mentions that she was in Africa for a Drs. W/O borders type thing. Thought I'd tie that to the current plot of the Congo.
The times I've watched them, wondering what could have ever possessed them to do the things they did. I suppose it was the same thing that made me go there in the first place. Wanting to help others, wanting to save others, wanting to do more than what I could do here. But just like they did, I realized that I couldn't do enough for them, that they were so far gone, it shocked me back in reality, it made me realize how much more vital I was here, how important I was here.
And I think they learned that too, although we were in different regions of the vast, amazing continent, the problems were the same all throughout, the same problems plagued an entire continent. It was so sad, that no matter who helps out, no matter who tries their hardest, the same problems remain, rather than shrinking, the problems grow, escalate to a level beyond what any of us can treat, they get so bad that it would take the whole world to treat them.
And even though the whole world is helping, it's still just a scratch on the top, and they finally realized it. They're so young, so naive, and I suppose that's a blessing to them, they haven't seen the world the way I have, they aren't as battle scarred as I am, they haven't felt the pain I have. They thought they could make a difference, so had I, I thought I could actually do something; I thought I could really make a difference.
But the things that I saw out there, they have so much more strength than I do, I only lasted a few weeks, they've lasted months on end out there, they can handle things so much better than I could, I never could cope with all the suffering that I saw out there. They say I'm the stronger one for all I've coped with, a doctor with a physical disability, but they are the stronger ones. I could never handle the pain of seeing human lives wasted, they could. They're stronger than I'll ever be.
A/N: Inspired when in a season 4 ep, Kerry mentions that she was in Africa for a Drs. W/O borders type thing. Thought I'd tie that to the current plot of the Congo.
The times I've watched them, wondering what could have ever possessed them to do the things they did. I suppose it was the same thing that made me go there in the first place. Wanting to help others, wanting to save others, wanting to do more than what I could do here. But just like they did, I realized that I couldn't do enough for them, that they were so far gone, it shocked me back in reality, it made me realize how much more vital I was here, how important I was here.
And I think they learned that too, although we were in different regions of the vast, amazing continent, the problems were the same all throughout, the same problems plagued an entire continent. It was so sad, that no matter who helps out, no matter who tries their hardest, the same problems remain, rather than shrinking, the problems grow, escalate to a level beyond what any of us can treat, they get so bad that it would take the whole world to treat them.
And even though the whole world is helping, it's still just a scratch on the top, and they finally realized it. They're so young, so naive, and I suppose that's a blessing to them, they haven't seen the world the way I have, they aren't as battle scarred as I am, they haven't felt the pain I have. They thought they could make a difference, so had I, I thought I could actually do something; I thought I could really make a difference.
But the things that I saw out there, they have so much more strength than I do, I only lasted a few weeks, they've lasted months on end out there, they can handle things so much better than I could, I never could cope with all the suffering that I saw out there. They say I'm the stronger one for all I've coped with, a doctor with a physical disability, but they are the stronger ones. I could never handle the pain of seeing human lives wasted, they could. They're stronger than I'll ever be.