Waking Sun
When I see you, who were so wise and cool,Gazing with silly sickness upon that foolYou've given your love to, your adoring handsTouch his so intimately that each understands,I know, most hidden things; and when I knowYour holiest dreams yield to the stupid bow.Jealousy by Rupert Brooke
Preface
Feeling what lovers once felt can change you, feeling the jealousy they suffered can kill you. Her named sickened me when ever the word left my mouth, the thought of him and her was unbearable. What am I supposed to feel when my love it doubted, when my life once again changed, but now changed not for the better but for the worse, what am I supposed to feel when I am pitied by my enemy? Love is tested by the greatest lengths of betrayal, but when the betrayal is too much it is the lovers that suffer.
Being beckoned to perform the unthinkable is one thing, but being beckoned to perform the unloyal is another. I was trusted, I was love, now I shall deceive and betray.
Chapter One
Book One
Bella Swan
…my perfect piece off forever?
An annual check up at the Volturi everything a girl could dream of. I was holding Renesmee's hand tightly as we walked slower than usual towards the dark ally of the Volturi castle. I saw my phone light up in my jeans pocket, there was no point checking it, it would be Jacob for the hundredth time, we had already had almost week long arguments on whether Nessie should have come with us, we had tried to explain to him over and over, if we did not take her with us the Volturi would insist coming Forks, something we do anything to prevent. We reached the alley, Carlisle and Edward, were walking slowly in front as we were met by The Volturi's two impressive guards. Felix stood tall and proud next to his slightly shorter but equally as strong, perhaps stronger accomplice, Demetri. He was one who made me weary, he smiled, his beautiful smile made him ever bit as a sinister and threatening as his crimson eyes, the eyes that held behind them years of finding, chasing and killing. I breathed in, I made myself look away, I kept my eyes forward and away from the two fierce vampires. I heard Felix's low chuckle, "Such a shame" he said, his usual conversation starter when he met with us. "You're a very lucky man, Edward, she did turn out well didn't she" he continued, though at this point I believed he was no longer talking about me. I stared angrily at the muscular man. "I mean, I'm sure she is going to do very well at one of those school things you veggies choose to go to" he said, seeing my angry stare, Felix wasn't one to want to upset me. Demetri sighed, "Shall we?" he asked gesturing towards the dark stairs that he was suddenly standing at the bottom of within seconds. Carlisle went first, then Edward made sure that Nessie and I went, he didn't want us to be anywhere near Felix, whom I felt for, I supposed just like Emmett who I constantly saw with in him, he was often saying the wrong this in serious situations. We finally reached the large double doors, Renesmee squeezed my hand, I looked at her to see fear in her deep, brown eyes, "It's going to be ok" I whispered, I hated this, behind those thick doors, anything could happen. Demetri pushed open the door, a brand new secretary sat at the desk,
"Ciao" she smiled at us,
Demetri turned, "If you could just wait for one moment" he smiled before disappearing through down the corridor and into the main hall. The pretty, human secretary stared after him, her dark eyes longing. This poor girl knew nothing of her fate, perhaps they had only given her the job because of obsession with Demetri, though he seemed to ignore her existence. Felix sat down on one of the cream, leather couches, "It's nice to see you again, Carlisle" he said respectfully, Carlisle, nodded and smiled politely, but kept his eyes, on the girl. He shook his head, and looked down. "It wont be painful for her" Felix said, quiet enough for the her not to hear as she carried on with her work. Within a few painful seconds Demetri was back, "Please" he said, then turning to walk back to the hall, we followed. As we left the room, I saw the girl frown. We walked down the dark corridor, light only by a few damaged candles. We finally came to another door, the door that led to the main hall. Demetri pushed it open with no hesitation, Aro was standing in the centre of the room. When the door shut behind us Felix graciously took all of our robes.
"Carlisle! What a nice surprise" Aro said, smiling. Carlisle nodded, he seemed anxious, "Miss Cullen" Aro smiled at Nessie, he held out his hand and just like she had done when she was a baby she seemed to be glad to get any kind of attention. She walked forward, a little too quickly as Aro's body guard Renata saw it, I felt her immediately use her power, her power of being able to block attacks, Nessie looked surprised and started to walk back towards me shaking her head in confusion . "Renata" Aro said glaring at her. The way he spoke at her, like she was some kind of misbehaving dog . He smiled, "Come my dear, have no fear" Renesmee walked forward and placed her hand upon his. These few seconds gave me time to look around the room, Caius sat there, a stern look on his pale face. Marcus sat next to him, looking bored, as always. My eyes then drifted to Jane who was staring angrily at me, her ruby eyes burning in frustration. Her brother Alec was staring at Renesmee an impressed look on his face, almost attraction, though this immediately changed when Jane shot an evil glance at him. It was then that I noticed what they were all wearing, something formal to it, Jane was wearing a black, velvet dress that made her look some how more child like, Heidi, who was standing with her arms draped across the top of Aro's throw was wearing a stunning black and red dress made from beautiful Italian silks, that hugged her slim body perfectly. Perhaps Aro found Carlisle's return as something to celebrate.
"There's just a ball tonight," Aro added still staring into Nessie's, she had clearly been thinking the same thing.
"We were all hoping you may join us," he added, We waited patiently for Aro to take from Nessie's mind what he needed, when I heard painful gasp come from the large doors of the room. I turned instinctively to the source of the noise, there was a swift almost invisible movement as my eyes met the door, Edward turned his head as I turned mine but he kept his gaze on the door, his thick eyebrows pulling together as if he was trying to concentrate, "What is it?" I whispered, but he didn't reply, just shook his head.
"I see all is well" Aro finally said, clapping his hands together.
We packed the last of our things into the many boxes that filled our tiny cottage. We were finally being taken away from our beautiful home, to the Cullen mansion. I was always aware that we couldn't keep our little piece of heaven forever, but I didn't know saying goodbye would be as hard. Carlisle had insisted that we move out so Renesmee didn't get too used to a home, as her immortal family didn't age my little girl would never be able to stay in one place for very long.
"Catch" Edward said gently throwing a small box to me. He smiled my favourite crooked smile as I dropped the box.
"Am I the only Vampire in the world with no hand eye coordination?"
"I would have you no other way" he whispered wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me close to him, I found it hard to believe that whenever Edward touched me I still found myself going light headed. He pressed his lips to mine softly, holding me even tighter.
"We're supposed to packing, not searching for Edwards tonsils" a booming voice laughed from the front door, a more feminine laugh came from the same direction. I looked up to see Emmett and Rosalie both picking up large boxes.
"Carlisle sent us" Rosalie smiled, her beauty had always seemed to make me feel inferior, but now Rosalie was being so much kinder to me the envy turned into a sisterly love.
"Yeah, to keep you two from…instead of packing" Emmett said, almost in hysterics now. I picked up a glass bowl of potpourri that hadn't been packed yet and flung it straight at his head. He expertly caught it in one hand, "Hey, I was only kidding Bellsy" he said placing the bowl down on a cardboard box. Edward and I both picked up boxes and followed Rose and Emmett out of the door and through the forest. We reached the Cullen house in no time. I saw that Esme had already packed away the boxes that we had brought in earlier. Renesmee was sat on the sofa reading Wuthering Heights, her beautiful doll like face was concentrating in the pages.
"Finished?" Carlisle asked coming down the stairs.
"Not yet, there are still a few more boxes" Edward answered,
"You should have a rest, Emmett and Rosalie will finish" I lifted my eye brow as he said 'rest', Carlisle noticed.
"Have a break" he smiled.
"Yeah, the cottage needs destroying, hey Rose" Emmett said, put his arm around her and walking out the door. Edward laughed slightly. Jacob walked through the front door, Nessie's face lit up, she put the old book down carefully and ran over to hug Jake. She kissed his cheek, he flinched uncomfortably. He was holding a newspaper.
"I think you guys need to see this" he said sitting down on the couch, he unrolled the creased newspaper and flattened it down on the coffee table. The headline of it read 'More Killings In Forks, Washington', Edward picked up the flimsy paper and began to read, I looked over his shoulder and started to read myself, 'The small town of Forks, Washington has been the victim of many animal attacks over the years, but now the latest string of freak deaths is due to a peculiar illness, the illness in question has been seen to drain victims of all blood, without any markings to show that the body had been harmed or violated.' both of us knew what it was, Jacob was waiting patiently for us to finish reading, the rest of the column was filled up with nonsense about drug theories or diseases, "Does Carlisle know?" Edward asked, Jacob shook his head and rolled the paper back up. Then handed the paper to him, Edward ran up stairs to Carlisle's office.
"What's going on?" Nessie asked, looking frustrated,
"Don't worry, it's not important" Jake smiled, she rolled her eyes and turned on the T.V.
"God Damn it!" Seth shouted. We had just got back from running the borders of La Push, all of the wolves seemed to be getting a little frustrated, not to mention tired. Carlisle had looked further into the headlines that had been printed about Forks and there was no doubt a vampire was in town. "We have been chasing after that leech all night!" Seth continued falling back on the leather couch next to his pack mates, Embry and Paul. Rose came out of the kitchen holding a huge tray of steaks and fries, "Here you go mutts" she smiled placing it down on the coffee table, even she had become accustom to the wolves being around now. And Paul seemed to hate us a lot less, especially since we were chasing after another vamp.
"Are Jake and Leah still out?" Embry asked between bites of his steak, I nodded, leaning against the wall. "Sam, Jared and Quill have gone back to La Push to rest, Jared and Brady are asleep upstairs" I smiled, they all seemed much more at ease now they were fed. The 'newbies' as Jake called them, Lyle, Cameron, Matt, Eli, Nate, Aiden and Kia, Paul's younger brother, were being exiled from this task, Sam had made it very clear he didn't think they ready or needed and wasn't prepared to put them in any danger, they had been put to the test on the Volturi's last visit and their expertise didn't prove to be successful Lyle and Kia wanted to impress Sam so they chose to not join their pack and my family to the clearing but try and unneedlessly attack Jane, who quickly to their knowledge was found to be very unattainable opponent. "Sleep sounds good" Seth said standing up and stretching out his arms, "Colin and Brady are upstairs, right?" he asked,
"Yes, feel free to take any of the beds up there, we have no use for them" Esme smiled, coming down the stairs, her and Rose had been put on wolf duty for today, this job meaning they had to make sure all of the boys were rested, fed and watered, after the way they had all helped us after Renesmee was born it was the least we could do. Seth ran up the stairs, but Paul and Embry looked slightly on edge, they didn't have the same confidence around us as Jacob and the younger boys did, probably convinced we would kill them in their sleep. "Boys, don't feel obliged to stay, but there are beds if you need them" Esme said. They nodded then walked out of the front door, Esme hated not being able to be hospitable but she was aware of the boys struggle. Shortly after the boys left Jake and Leah got back, to Leah's irritation she was forced to borrow clothes from Rose, she had hidden hers behind a tree close to the house, but even in the seriousness of a human killing vampire being in town Jared thought it would be hilarious to steal them, Leah didn't find it funny. The two of them came running through the door as soon as they were phased and clothed,
"Bells!" Jake shouted causing Rose and Esme to be beside me immediately, "I think we found something" he looked over to Leah who was holding in her hands something that looked like a piece of cream material. "What is it?" Rose asked, gently taking the item from Leah's hands. "We don't know, but it has the bloodsuckers scent on it" Leah announced,
Rose held up the material and examined it carefully.
"Looks like a piece of a dress" she finally said, "and who ever owns that dress if very into…vintage" she laughed
"what do you mean?" Esme asked innocently,
"Well, this material dates way back to at least the end of the 1800's they don't make this stuff anymore"
"So the vamp's gotta be old then" Jake asked,
"and I think we can guess the vampire is female?" Esme smiled, "Poor thing she might just be scared and now her clothing is ripped"
"Esme, no disrespect, but if this vampire is at least old enough to have lived in the 1800's I think it's obvious she knows what she's doing" Jacob said,
"and she keeps coming back so, she must want something too" Leah added quietly,
"Either way, we must catch up with her, just to ask her what she wants. Perhaps she has heard of us and wants to learn the vegetarian ways" Esme smiled, she spoke so naively, but I had a feeling that this vampire wasn't going to be a friend to us. Jake went up stairs to see if Renesmee was ok, she was meant to be at school, but because of the new arrival in town no one felt comfortable letting her leave the house.
"Edward and Emmett found anything?" Leah asked,
"Not that we know of" Esme smiled,
"I think it's time I go and help out" I said about to leave,
"Hey Bells, wait up" Jake said coming back down the stairs,
"Jacob, I think you need some rest." Esme said, looking very concerned,
"No! Until that le…" he started, before realising Rosalie was staring at him, "Until that vampire is out of here, I'm not sleeping a wink. I'll see you later Le" he smiled at Leah.
Jacob and I left the Cullen house and ran off into the woods, I turned around allowing him to phase in peace. We ran through the forest, Jacob seemed to be smelling every tree we past, we ran straight up to the borders of La Push, the scent stopped there. Jacob and I both were confused, I think at first we were all pretty convinced she was just like Victoria, always coming back and fast enough to keep away from us all, all the same patterns, but Victoria has no problem running through La Push. It was as if this vampire knew about the treaty and as if they had to abide, or perhaps they knew the wolves. We ran right along the border, it was kind of fun just being alone with Jake, even in Wolf form he was still great to be around and it had been so long since we had been able to hang out alone together. It was a shame it had to be under these circumstances. I was becoming more motherly by the day now, even if Nessie had a giant group of werewolves and vampires to look out for her, I still couldn't help worrying. Especially now, Edward and Carlisle had both starting acting ridiculous, Carlisle was constantly arguing with Esme, something I had thought I would never see, and Edward was giving nothing away about what was going on in this vampire's mind even though it was clear he had heard, everything seemed to have changed since out last visit to Volturi.