1.
Hello
He remembers when he first met him. He had been training to become a Bookman as it was his choice to do so. He was talented they said.
Talented because he remembers.
And he remembers as he remembers everything else that he has no need for a heart.
Or should have.
2.
Smile
He was smiling when he introduced himself while trying to hug him.
He was grinning when he received his cold words when they had their first mission together.
Lavi was smiling while he slung an arm around his shoulders and dodged the blade of Mugen.
3.
Dance
Lavi remembers watching him as he fought.
He admired his grace and the beauty of his technique.
Standing aside, Lavi watched and observed.
Not because he was a Bookman. But because it simply wasn't his battle.
This was his battle, his dance.
4.
Need
He was a Bookman.
He had no need for a heart.
He has no need for friends, enemies, nakama or lovers.
He should have no need for him.
5.
Knowledge
He shouldn't have done a lot of things.
Even if he does not remember how he fell in love with him.
He shouldn't have loved.
But Lavi remembers.
That it had been too late when he found out.
6.
Time
The war was drawing to a close and Lavi knows.
He knows he will have to leave soon.
Soon the war will end and the record would be written.
Soon his job as a Bookman will carry him away.
Soon...
7.
Past
Packing his few belongings Bookman Jr. placed his innocence on the table.
He was no longer Lavi, no matter how real the illusion had become. Soon he would be a new person, his fiftieth alias.
And with his new personality he would shed his past.
He would leave everything behind with his innocence.
Because he is a Bookman.
8.
Decide
It was to be a clean exit.
No send-offs. Just a silent goodbye to those he had become attached to.
Bookman Jr. was supposed to just walk away.
This was just one of his duties.
After all, he was the one who decided to be a Bookman.
9.
Anger
What he didn't expect was to meet Kanda on the way out.
He didn't expect the shock or the betrayal fleeting across his usually closed face.
The anger though he did expect.
10.
Duty
He locked Kanda in as he walked out, belongings hoisted over his shoulders. There was a quiet sigh as Kanda gave up on breaking down his door.
He knew the regret and sadness would come later.
But for now he let his duty take over.
11.
Regret
"Your going to just walk away?"
"Lavi!"
"Yuu…" he paused and swallowed.
"I'll regret this as long as I live, Yuu"
I love you.
I love you, I love you, I love you.
12.
Silence
With his quiet footsteps echoing around the Black Order for the last time, silent tears fell down his cheeks.
Lavi still had a heart.
Although Bookman didn't.
13.
Goodbye?
No, Yuu.
Farewell.
Inspired by Kuro666, although she doesn't know it C: I hope you read this!
This fic was also originally a songfic to This Love by the Veronicas but the lyrics didn't really fit after I finished writing so…
Thanks for reading and leave a review. Please?
-Tora Nanashi