The Lonely
A/N Sorry guys I'm in that depressed mood again so fair warning ahead. And if you wonder why I use Aelita in these stories I feel like it ok! Since it seems the nicest people have the most problems! Um... sorry about that. Like I said warning.
It was lunch time. Everyone would be in the cafeteria eating, talking together. It was raining outside. I didn't feel like going to lunch though. Our group seems to have drifted apart. Or at least I have.
"Hey Aelita are you coming to lunch?" Jeremy asked.
"No I'm not that hungry." I said.
"Ok if you're sure." He said.
After he left I just continued to stare out the window. Then I started to think of how things had been over the past few weeks. It just seemed that even around my friends I felt as though I may as well have been invisible, especially since Laura came around. It's just now I have the feeling that really would anyone notice or care if I were gone? It's not like I need to deactivate towers since XANA is gone.
Thankfully I'm able to keep the others from getting too worried about me. Sadly though that task seems to be getting harder as time goes by.
Winter break was coming again soon, yippee more loneliness! This year I wouldn't be able to go with Jeremy since his parents and him are going away on vacation. Odd's going to see his family in America, Ulrich is stuck with a tutor, and Yumi and her family are going to Japan to visit some family.
The storm was getting worse now. I can really relate to the storm now since I feel all the emotions inside me raging. It's hard to have these lonely feelings cause it feels just as though you're nothing in the world just dust in the wind.
Looking at the clock I saw that there were still twenty minutes left of lunch. I was a little hungry so I decided to head to the cafeteria. When I got in I saw Jeremy and the others listening to one of Odd's jokes. I grabbed a tray and got some food before sitting down at the table with my friends.
"Hey princess thought you weren't hungry?" Odd said.
"I guess I changed my mind." I said smiling. As the others started to talk about other things I started thinking about some of the stuff I'd found online. Some I relate to others just made me smile. One that I think fit this situation very well was... Sick of trying. Tired of crying. Yes I'm smiling but inside I'm dyeing. I don't know why I decided to think of that cause that caused a single tear to roll down my cheek. Unfortunately it didn't go unnoticed.
"Aelita are you ok?" Jeremy asked. That snapped me back to my senses and noticed that my friends were looking at me concerned.
"Um yea I'm fine just thinking of my father again." I said lying.
"Oh well if you're sure. Hey Yumi is having a sleepover at her house to celebrate the one month anniversary of defeating XANA. Are you coming?" He asked.
"Yes of course." I said.
"Great well see you guys after class." Yumi said.
The rest of us fallowed suit and headed to our next class. It was science. I sat in the back of the room by myself my usual spot occupied by we were doing a project where we could partner up with someone. I tried to get to Jeremy to ask him but Laura beat me to it. Having no one else to partner with I just worked in the back by myself. Like always since Laura came along. It truly did stink being the lonely kid in the back of the room.
A/N Gosh please someone help. I've got to stop writing when I'm depressed. I know it's short but that's all I felt like doing. Basically what I did in this story is Aelita, the feelings and situations that she went through, are exactly the same as me so basically Aelita was in my place if it were real life. Now I swear this is my last piece of depressing fiction. Oh wait didn't I say that last time...