Look at Me

You should've seen it Ally.

You should've seen it Ally.

I'm quickly falling to pieces.

I can't believe it Ally.

I can't believe it Ally.

I can't believe you died.

I'm in denial Ally.

I'm in denial Ally.

I simply won't accept the fact that you're gone.

They finally got me Ally.

They finally got me Ally.

They finally made acknowledge that you are dead.

I've been crying for three weeks Ally.

I've been crying for twenty-one days Ally.

I'll probably be crying forever.

I can't help it Ally.

I can't help it Ally.

I can't help but think about killing myself.

It won't go away Ally.

It won't go away.

This buggering in my head that says to just end the suffering.

I loved you Ally.

I still love you Ally.

I wonder if you ever loved me.

I'm so sorry Ally.

I'm so, so sorry Ally.

I know I'm tearing Team Austin apart.

I've given up Ally.

I've given up.

Singing and music and performing just isn't the same without you here.

I'm cutting myself Ally.

I'm cutting myself Ally.

It was an accident. But it helps get rid of so much of the pain.

I almost killed someone Ally.

I almost killed someone Ally.

I almost killed Dallas.

It was a mistake Ally.

It was all just one big mistake.

He was talking about you and something inside of me just snapped.

I didn't mean to Ally.

I really didn't mean to Ally.

But I hit him. I had a bat. His skull and ribs cracked. I couldn't get to his heart.

I'm fading Ally.

I don't know who I am anymore Ally.

What am I supposed to do?

I'm at the bridge Ally.

I'm at the top of the bridge we bungee jumped from.

Please save me.

I went back home Ally.

I couldn't do it Ally.

I'm such a coward.

I've been home for two months Ally.

Two months Ally.

I refuse to go outside and face the world.

I haven't been eating Ally.

I haven't been eating Ally.

My mom says I'm all skin and bones. Food make me nauseous.

It's official Ally.

It's official Ally.

I'm officially a high school drop-out.

They put me in a mental ward Ally.

They put me in a mental ward Ally.

Said I wasn't stable enough to function out there.

I collapsed Ally.

I collapsed Ally.

Right in the middle of the mental ward hallway. Said it was because of lack of food and liquids.

I failed you Ally.

I failed you Ally.

I let you down. I'm so, so sorry.

They won't let any knives near me Ally.

No knives near me.

They want me to stop cutting myself. I've been scratching at my arms since.

I'm dead inside Ally.

I'm completely dead inside Ally.

So what would the difference be if I really was dead?

Trish and Dez visited me today Ally.

They actually came to visit me Ally!

It was the first time since you died that we actually talked. They lasted six minutes before breaking down and crying. I think it was because of me.

Please come back Ally.

Please come back Ally.

I really need you by my side.

I need you Ally.

I need you Ally.

I seriously can't live without you.

I can't make it without you Ally.

I'll be seeing you soon Ally.

I love you Ally.

I hope Trish and Dez know I'm sorry Ally.

They need to know.

I think they know.

I know.