Kurt was in a great mood. The Warblers were practicing their new set list for Regionals. They had placed at Sectionals and now it was hotting up. Blaine was due to come round and go over ideas for potential songs with him and he needed to look great. Kurt had now been at Dalton for well over a month and he loved it. Everything about the school was so much better than McKinley High. Especially the fact that there was no Karofsky to terrify the crap out of him.
As the doorbell rang he checked the wall clock in the hallway. Blaine was an hour early. He shrugged. Opening the door with a grin, he froze as Mr Karofsky was standing at the doorway with what he presumed was his wife.
"Hello Kurt," he said in a small voice. Something wasn't right but Kurt couldn't put his finger on it.
"I have nothing to say to you," he didn't want to drag everything up again. He didn't care what Karofsky had done. He was happy at Dalton. That jerk deserved everything that was coming to him. He had made Kurt's life hell at school and he wasn't one to forgive so easily.
Mr Karofsky managed a small, sad, smile. "Please." He took a plain, manila envelope out of his jacket pocket and pressed it into Kurt hands. "Sorry…We didn't know…" he choked before his wife held his arm and guided him to the car.
Kurt watched the parents drive away and felt a lump in his throat.
Closing the door behind him he wondered whether he should open up the envelope. He didn't want to, but something made him pull out the small letter that it contained.
Dear Kurt,
What can I say? Sorry just won't cut it. Not after everything I did to you. I knew that if I ever called round to explain that Finn or your dad would kill me so I figured a letter would be better.
I hate you. But you probably knew that already. And it is for the reason you think. It's because you're gay. It's because you made me realise that I liked boys. And I wanted to punish you for it. Most of all, I hate you for making me fall in love with you when I knew that you could never love me back. And once I kissed you, I just couldn't get you out of my head. And if I couldn't have you, I wanted to break you. And now you're gone. And it's even worse. Because everytime I turn a corner I pray that you're going to be there. But you're not. Because you're never coming back and I can only blame myself.
This isn't some girly love letter though. I just wanted to tell you, I get it. I'm the biggest jerk in the world. A waste of space.
I'm so messed up that I can't take it anymore. I can't stand it. I can't stand the fact that I like boys compared to girls. I hate myself for that. But what I can't stand more is what I did to you. So I promise, I will never hurt you again. I'll see to that.
I know it's a big ask, but I hope you have it in your heart to forgive me one day.
Karofsky
Kurt stiffened as he read the letter. He didn't move until Finn opened the door. Looking at Kurt's face he assumed Kurt knew.
"I take it you heard about Karofsky?" Fin asked his step-brother. The bigger boy was shaking himself. He couldn't believe this was happening.
Kurt knew, but he needed to here it out aloud. "What about Karofsky?" A silent tear fell down his cheek.
Finn took a shaky breath. "He's dead…His dad found him. He hung himself in his bedroom, Kurt. He took his own life."
Kurt dropped to the floor.
Karofsky was really gone.
I know, something short and evil. But it just kept going around in my head after Furt so I had to write a really short something to get it out.
My exam is tomorrow so hopefully I can get another chapter of Detention out soon and pretend that Furt never happened.
Please review.
DDF
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