Hello! This is my new story. In fact it is my second AU story. Though I haven't completed my first one. (_ _ )||| Wanted it to be a one-shot but it changed to a full story so enjoy!
Disclaimer: Kuroshitsuji isn't mine.
Warning: The first few chapters are all flashbacks. So there'll be stuff that you won't understand but I'll explain them later.
Dear Sebastian,
If you are reading this, it means I'm already gone. Life isn't fair, especially to us. I had thought I had a chance to meet up with you and explain things fully but somehow I feel that the time slips away too fast. So I have decided to pen everything down.
Our relationship was something I thought we would never have. Meeting and partnering you for my own benefits turned out to be more complex than I ever thought it would be. I still remember the first day when we actually met. I was in the bakery that you owned and you greeted me with a smile that I can never forget. But my first thought about you was 'what a frightening guy he is'. Ironic, isn't it? It turned out to be that you were someone… caring, passionate… and possessive, of course.
It was a pity that things turned out like this but nothing can change that now. The past stays as the past. All I can say is that it wasn't the way you thought it was. What I was hiding from you, what I was keeping mum about was all concerning the future we would have together. I never knew you would find out so early, but since you had your connections, I figured it would not have been a problem at all.
Every night, I would worry about what would happen if the secret I had been hiding was revealed to you,wondering how great the impact would be on us, on our relationship. And indeed, it happened. It not only caused us pain and suffering, but it was something deeper than that.Something I am not capable of fully understanding, I guess.
Perhaps it would have been better if I told you from the start, but I was too afraid of the consequences that may follow. The secret I was hiding, it ruined us didn't it? The bridge was burnt, our relationship, broken.We can't be the same any more can we?
Sebastian, I know you are mad at me. I know you avoided me at all cost when I looked for you. If you refuse to read on, I prefer that you burn everything in the parcel and this letter itself. I'll understand. No matter how much I try to explain it, I know that you'll not forgive me at all.
Love,
Ciel
I know it is very short but may I have your views please? Thank you.
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