Disclaim: I don't own Torchwood and any of its Character, they belong to Russell T. Davies.

This is my first story ever (posted), I hope people are going to enjoy it. Also a huge thanks to my Beta reader Tadis-mole, she was a great help and she also helped with the story title as well as Chapter title. I give her my gratitude.

Misgiving

As PC Gwen Cooper came through the door of the tourist information office, carrying two pizza boxes, Ianto already knew this was another curious person who wanted to discover the mysteries of Torchwood. Nevertheless she was not the first, nor was she going to be the last. Captain Jack Harkness was very different from Yvonne Hartman; even though Torchwood was supposed to be a secret organisation, around Cardiff everyone knew about it. And that caused a lot of trouble when it came to trying to keep people off Torchwood's back.

Ianto gave Gwen time to look around the office, and then walk out from the back room with his coffee and a welcoming smile. As she spotted him, Gwen burst out nervously, "Oh hi, sorry I'm late. Someone ordered pizza?" Ianto gave a typical response, "Who is it for?"

"I think its…Mr. Harkness." Gwen gave an uncertain look before answering. When she just finished the door shut unintentionally due to the wind.

So much for a cop… the pizza ordered was certainly not under the name of Mr. Harkness.

Ianto signed unnoticeably, as he walked to the side of the information desk that was covered by pamphlets and pressed the button for the trap door to the Hub. It also alerted everyone in the Hub, that they had 'guest'.

Gwen looked into the trap door, and stared back at him with an astonished look. Ianto picked up his coffee mug and saw her typical reaction towards the trap door and told her, "Don't keep them waiting."

Gwen looked at him with hesitation and walked into the trap door. Ianto took a sip of his coffee then focus his gaze at Gwen to see her first glance at the walkway the trap door lead to and turned around looking at him for assurance. Ianto point the direction with his eyes and said silently "Go on." Also giving her a confidential smile.

As the trap door closed, Ianto couldn't help to think about her upcoming fate, through her accent he recognised that she was also Welsh. However he couldn't help her, he made the decision of not interfering with anything and only concentrate on saving Lisa. He made the oath to protect Lisa and turning her back to normal, and he was not going to let anything get into the way of that. He could only guess what Jack was going to do, because he had seen this kind of situation too many times over the past year since he joined Torchwood Three, after the battle of Canary Wharf.

Ianto logged into his computer and brought up the CCTV cameras located in the Hub watching Gwen entering and examining the Hub and the people. Then Ianto saw her gaze is focused on Jack, then Susie and then at Jack again.

Guess Jack's pheromone has no limitations. It can even attract a police attention from three levels below ground. Ianto commented I wish he attracts less attention, and then we wouldn't have to retcon curious people all the time.

As Gwen walked towards Jack slowly, passing Tosh and Owen, both of them started to burst into laughter. From the camera Gwen looked at Tosh and Owen curiously to see there was something wrong.

Well, typical of Owen isn't it. I can't imagine a day when he's going to be all serious and nerdy.

Ianto took a sip of coffee, while watching the drama going on in the Hub.

As Owen and Tosh spoiled the tension, Ianto saw from the CCTV footage Jack sighed at their performance and situation. Ianto couldn't help but smirk as Jack's team spoiled his fun. Gwen nervously looked around at Tosh, Owen and Susie, realising something wasn't right. Both Susie and Jack left their stations and gathered at the lounge area.

Ianto was curious. How was Jack going to react when he found out the pizza they have been ordering is under the name of "Torchwood"? He still remembered when he first joined Torchwood Three, starting off at the tourist information office. The pizza delivery person came and asked for "Torchwood", he almost choked on his beloved coffee, however he was new and from Torchwood One, and he didn't say anything.

Ianto could see Gwen and everyone talking about something. He was guessing that it was probably about what she saw with the glove and John Tucker and the man who was killed by a weevil at the hospital. It took him awhile to clean up the blood spatter as well as disposing the body at the dock, plus making his alibi.

Thank god Tosh helped.

Gwen put down the pizza boxes on the coffee table, which needed cleaning again, Ianto noted, and followed Jack, as he headed off toward the holding cells. As she crossed the bridge Myfanwy suddenly became impatient and flew across the Hub. Ianto suddenly registered that it was quite late and due to PC Gwen Coopers' case he hadn't fed Myfanwy yet.

She must be starving by now, damn it. My schedule for today is totally ruined.

Ianto rushed into the Hub, to feed Myfanwy as well as cleaning up the coffee table as top priority.

Just as Ianto finished feeding Myfanwy and getting her to calm down, Jack and Gwen came out of the holding cells. She still looked a bit horrified from encountering a Weevil, or an Alien. They came back up to the lounge area; Jack suddenly started to introduce everyone in the Hub to Gwen as well as their position.

Here we go again, introducing everyone to the 'Lost Sheep' before they forget everything.

As Ianto was lost in thought of what happened to people like Gwen, Jack introduced him to Gwen.

"This is Ianto Jones. Ianto cleans up after us and get us everywhere on time."

Ianto smiled at the mentioning of his name and replied in his usual manner. "I try my best."

"And he looks good in a suit." Jack added to his previous comment.

"Careful, that's harassment sir." Ianto was not really offended, but he didn't want to get too close with Jack. He had Lisa and Lisa was all he need. If some flirting from his boss gave him an opportunity to rescue Lisa, he could cope with it. However the way Jack introduced him to Gwen, made him seem like a nobody in Torchwood, or more precise invisible.

Well this is what I asked for, no unwanted attention, no responsibility and no interaction with Torchwood Three's daily operation.

Ianto's tone contained a slightly scornful doubt, but he didn't realise it himself.

Finally Gwen showed some intelligence, as she became aware of what she can and cannot know. Ianto had always wondered why people couldn't realise these facts before they get into something they shouldn't know or do.

As Gwen continued into the issue, guess she's not as ignorant as she acts. Ianto thought before heading into Jack's office to put the paperwork that Jack needed to look at by tomorrow on his desk. He had worked out that Jack didn't sleep much, so he should have plenty of time to finish looking at them.

"Ianto! If he needs back up, then you better be on standby."

Ianto came out of the office when Jack shouted his name and hear the difference of tone and phrasing he used on him and the rest of the team.

I'm just a butler who does everything else nobody wants to do. Suppose I asked for this.

There is cynical tone, which Ianto fail to recognise.

When Ianto finished cleaning up the Hub and organising the paperwork, everyone else has already gone home. He remembered hearing Tosh and Owen saying goodbye and Jack took Gwen out from the lift exit. Ianto checked the time and reckoned it was about time and hacked into Gwen's home computer. He knew she was about to record everything somewhere in a short amount of time, and on paper it was too slow. This was part of his job as well, making sure there was nothing that contained any information on Torchwood when people like Gwen were retconned. He quickly read through her entry and there is no sign of his name.

Even a person who only has a brief contact with Torchwood can figure out I'm not important in the team at all.

Ianto laughed at himself for his invisibility; this is what I want. I don't need anyone else's attention beside Lisa. Lisa is all I need.

Before heading home, he first said goodbye to Lisa and he saw the two boxes of pizza lying on the coffee table; well I've got my dinner for tonight. Ianto smiled at the boxes of pizza. Still remember to leave one behind incase if Jack needs it and head off to his car parked in the Torchwood car park on the other side of Roald Dahl Plass.

When he got home, he felt sad that there was no one welcoming him home anymore, or to keep him company. He has been dealing with it fine for the past year, but he did not know why it has occurred to him again. The feeling of loneliness and melancholy, he threw his suit on to the back of the sofa and put the DVD in. When he was eating the warmed up pizza and watching the recorded video of the day Lisa and him engaged, Ianto remembered he was so…happy and he felt his life was complete, but just a week after that day, everything turned disastrous.

When the DVD ended Ianto felt a tear running down his face and the pizza had now turned cold. He quick took a few more bites; that is such a waste, suppose I didn't have to pay for it. Ianto stared at the almost full pizza box before shoving it in the bin. He dug out his diary from his bedside draw and wrote in his neat writing of his day and his feelings, before going to sleep.

After the events of Gwen, he thought everything was going to be normal again. He heard from Jack that Gwen said they could liaison with the police. Everyone thought of it as a joke, Owen said "Well bugger the police, what can they do when there're aliens knocking on their door? Scream?" While Ianto took note of Susie's face. It had gone pale; it wasn't normal, like she was hiding something. Thus when the police report of the murder weapon came out, he was shock and horrified.

Ianto had seen that knife thousands of time in the Hub when he was cleaning Susie's workstation. It was exactly the same shape and there is no knife like the one Susie had. That knife came through the rift and it was listed in the archives. It might have been used to kill people, as there were bloodstains found on the knife. However Ianto wasn't about to say anything yet, as Susie was the 2nd in command as well as the longest member of Torchwood beside Jack.

Ianto suddenly jump out of bed from a nightmare he can't remember, he turned to his bedside table and saw it was only two o'clock in the morning.

Jesus Christ, what the hell was that? What ever it was send a shiver down my spine. What could it been?

Ianto lost himself in thought and decides to make himself a coffee before Susie and Gwen suddenly popped into his head.

Oh My God! I almost forgot. The retcon Jack used was only level three. Gwen examined the Hub carefully when she came, therefore the murder weapon must have triggered a series of images and I didn't get a chance to go through her flat.

Ianto cursed himself while texting to Jack to ask him to check the CCTV around the Millennium Centre, with the excuse he's worried about the retcon used on Gwen because he didn't go through her flat.

Later that morning he received a message from Jack asking him to clean up the pool of blood in front of the lift. He realised Susie was gone. Having finished doing that, he went through the CCTV footage early that morning and saw Jack being shot by Susie and then come back to life.

What the hell is this? No wonder there were two pools of blood.

Ianto wiped out the footage of Jack being shot and resurrected, just in case if anyone checked.

"Ianto! Can you put both the glove and the knife away please?"

There was weariness in his voice, and he brought the container for the glove and slid the knife in, then put on the lock for "Not for Use". Jack asked Tosh and Owen if they had taken any alien technology out of base. Tosh took out a mobile like device, the only known use was that it could scan books easily, and Owen had taken out the pheromones he created using Jack's 51st century pheromones.

Jack handled Susie's body all alone. He also hired Gwen as Susie's replacement, when she has just died for a few hours.

So much for Susie's death…you can't even wait a few days to get Gwen into Torchwood.

Ianto stared blankly at Jack when he announced his decision, he's reason being "there is a place available, and Gwen seems like a good candidate. Also she broke the retcon so there is no other choice."

Ianto laughed at himself remembering how hard he tried to get the job, while Gwen just barged in so easily.