My name is Cat.

Its short for Catherine, but I've never liked that name. So I shortened it to Cat. I think it suits me better.

I'm the girl that no one makes fun of publicly, but everyone thinks it. I have what my mom calls a 'button' nose; everyone else calls it a pig nose. My eyes are too squinty and my cheeks are too chubby. The only people who have every called me beautiful, or even pretty, are my family. My mom, grandparents, the usuall.

I try to fit in.

I have dark brown hair that hangs to about the middle of my back. I would like to dye my hair but my mom thinks that people who dye their hair look stupid. So I keep it the natural color. Its naturally wavy. I like having it wavy and messy but its not that normal to have that kind of hair. So I straighten it. To fit in, I guess; it doesn't really work. I like wearing skinny jeans but people around here think that if you wear skinny jeans you're automatically emo or something. So I only wear them at my house or my friends's houses.

My mom thinks you sould be natural yet she's the one putting on $30 worth of make-up each day. I don't wear make-up. It would probably make me prettier but that's one thing I don't want society to change about me. My looks. Even if I don't look super-model gorgeous, I want to look like me. Like Cat. So that if, maybe one day, someone started to like me, I know that they like me for me. Cat. Not some 'pretty face'.

I live on the computer.

I spend most of my time on Tumblr and Twitter. But I also play MineCraft and World of WarCraft. I used to play RuneScape. Never really thought of playing League of Legends, but I've heard of it.

See, people where I live, they don't understand me. At all. They think if you play computer games, then you're just this freak who doesn't have any friends or something. That's partly true, though. I only have 4 or 5 real true friends. They are like me. I am like them. But I think I'm more 'internet associated'. Like I said before. I spend most of my time on Tumblr. They don't really understand Tumblr all that well. We all have twitter accounts. I'm the only one who plays MineCraft and World of Warcraft, though.

Oh well. They are like me and that's all that really matters. They are the only one's in my hometown that really understand just how addicting the internet can be. That's probably why they are my only friends.

I am not like people from here.

You already know this by now.

No one understands me. I don't have many friends. I am not pretty. I am not pretty. I am not.

I have thought of cutting myself. But I am not brave enough to. It might help me relieve some stress. But im too much of a coward to intentionally hurt myself. I am a coward. I am.

I am a coward, but that is just me. I will have to live with it.

This is my life.

This is Cat.

A/N My name isn't actually Cat. I changed it for reasons. But this is my life. In later chapters it won't be my life anymore. It will be a luckier girls life. A luckier girl that is not me. Will never be me. Thanks for reading.