Title: Dear Diary
Author: lovstar
Spoilers: None
Summary: A peek at Sam's diary.
Disclaimer: All publicity recognizable characters and places are the property of MGM, World Gekko Corp and Double Secret Productions. This piece of fan fiction was created for entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended.
Dear Diary, The colonel will be surprised if he sees this. But I am a girl and every girl wants to be loved, every girl wants to be cherished. Maybe I don't strike you as someone who needs protection or someone who needs a guy in my life. But just like every other women, I want to feel wanted, loved, and needed. I want to have someone who comforts me when I'm sad, someone who cheers me up when I'm down, and someone who loves me for who I am, not who I could be.
It's ironic really. When I found the one for me, all I could do is hide it inside my heart. Hid it so deep that even I can't tell it's there. It's ironic that when I found out he feels the same about me, all I could do is leave it in the room no matter how much I just want to announce to the world that I found my prince charming.
Sure life's not fair. Nothing is ever fair. Look at the bright side, I know that he feels the same, I know that he cares for me more than he's suppose to, and I know no one on earth or the universe can make me feel the way he does. But it's not enough. It hurts to see him every day and act like the tension between us is just a rumor, nothing more. It hurts on those lonely nights when there's nothing to do except think, and thinking is no good. All I can think of is him, the way he talks, the smiles he gave me when I laugh at his jokes, and the confused looks he has when I talk about my doohickeys. All I can think of is what life would be like if I made a different choice, like the alternate universes. She had him. They were married for one year. One year of happiness with the one you love.
You will be surprised at how much I would give up just to be with him for a day, just the two of us, no worries of the attacks, no worries of regulations, just him and me. A day to be able to feel his arms around me, holding me securely in his arms, keeping me safe and drowning myself in those deep chocolate brown eyes.
I don't see this happening any time soon in the future. It's just a dream, a dream that might never come true no matter how much I want it to. It hurts, but life goes on and tomorrow's just another day to act like nothing has changed when everything has.
Disclaimer: All publicity recognizable characters and places are the property of MGM, World Gekko Corp and Double Secret Productions. This piece of fan fiction was created for entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended.
Dear Diary, The colonel will be surprised if he sees this. But I am a girl and every girl wants to be loved, every girl wants to be cherished. Maybe I don't strike you as someone who needs protection or someone who needs a guy in my life. But just like every other women, I want to feel wanted, loved, and needed. I want to have someone who comforts me when I'm sad, someone who cheers me up when I'm down, and someone who loves me for who I am, not who I could be.
It's ironic really. When I found the one for me, all I could do is hide it inside my heart. Hid it so deep that even I can't tell it's there. It's ironic that when I found out he feels the same about me, all I could do is leave it in the room no matter how much I just want to announce to the world that I found my prince charming.
Sure life's not fair. Nothing is ever fair. Look at the bright side, I know that he feels the same, I know that he cares for me more than he's suppose to, and I know no one on earth or the universe can make me feel the way he does. But it's not enough. It hurts to see him every day and act like the tension between us is just a rumor, nothing more. It hurts on those lonely nights when there's nothing to do except think, and thinking is no good. All I can think of is him, the way he talks, the smiles he gave me when I laugh at his jokes, and the confused looks he has when I talk about my doohickeys. All I can think of is what life would be like if I made a different choice, like the alternate universes. She had him. They were married for one year. One year of happiness with the one you love.
You will be surprised at how much I would give up just to be with him for a day, just the two of us, no worries of the attacks, no worries of regulations, just him and me. A day to be able to feel his arms around me, holding me securely in his arms, keeping me safe and drowning myself in those deep chocolate brown eyes.
I don't see this happening any time soon in the future. It's just a dream, a dream that might never come true no matter how much I want it to. It hurts, but life goes on and tomorrow's just another day to act like nothing has changed when everything has.