AN: First chapter! Hermione first and then depending on reviews I might continue. Enjoy!
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Chapter 1 – Hermione Granger
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In her first year of Hogwarts, it would have shown belonging, friendships.
In her second, stopping the attacks, maybe even escaping from it all.
In her third, everyone she loved, safe and well, not feeling the threatening presence of Sirius Black who (everyone believed) was a murderer.
But after the summer of her fourth year, when she saw Harry emerge from the maze with a body – Cedric Diggory's body – and he announced that Voldemort was back… She would have seen Voldemort dead. For so long, that was her truest desire. And after a while, she realised that although Harry was the one spoken of in the prophecy, she could help him. If she truly wanted the world freed of Voldemort, she would overcome her fear and aid her friend to do it.
And at times, that desire wavered, and she considered abandoning their plans; going back to her parents; running after Ron and apologising, not caring whether Voldemort remained or not, only wanting, needing to be with Ron, to guarantee he would never leave again.
But she always brought herself back to sensibility. How could she not? To just leave and eliminate her responsibilities would free her of the task – that impossible task – but it would also condemn both worlds to an eternity of pain, suffering and fear. However long it would take, she knew that the end result, the death of Voldemort, would relieve everyone of that suffering.
And then he was laid out in a separate chamber and her heart sang. And then she was confused, because Fred was dead and so were Lupin and Tonks and so many others she knew by name or face. She didn't know how to feel. But her heart's desire had been fulfilled.
As had others.
After the Battle of Hogwarts, she wasn't quite sure what to do with herself. She had no need to be afraid anymore, or find out something her life depended on. So she threw herself into her last year of study, and took her N.E.W.Ts at home.
At that point, the mirror might not have shown anything – she was so unsure of everything.
And when everything seemed so difficult – Harry having responsibility of baby Teddy, funeral after funeral after funeral, when the grief and anguish grew and grew, and slowed her life down until it seemed like she was wading through treacle by living each day…
Sometimes, then, she wanted out, wanted not to have to deal with it all. She was so tired of coping, so tired of being capable.
Again, when she had such dark thoughts, she reminded herself that things would get better; they hadn't done all they had for nothing. Things would change.
And they did. She had always had Ron, and she had proved to him that he could always have her, when she kissed him in the Battle of Hogwarts.
And then, again, they proved it to each other that precious day in August, when they exchanged vows and were declared married.
She was so unbelievably happy that day, and looking into the mirror, again, she would have seen nothing, but because her heart was bursting with joy, rather than confusion.
Throughout those next few years, having Rose and then Hugo, her heart's desire was being fulfilled – a happy family to love and be loved in return. Everyone was still coming to terms with relatives' and friends' deaths, but surely she shared her desire others. She definitely knew that Ron, Harry and Ginny wanted the same.
She lived with the grief, as she knew so many others did, but it was being balanced all the time by the love of her family, the happiness they shared and the determination to make the world right.
Hermione Granger is living proof that some desires of the heart can be granted, and some pain can be negated by joy.
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AN: There you go guys! Tell me what you think and if I should carry on. (If I did, the next person would probably be Ginny).
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