Disclaimer: I don't own the Gallagher Girls, they belong to Ally Carter
"Cameron, we need to talk." Zach called loudly as he walked into the house. He rarely used my full first name, but whenever he did, it wasn't good. "Nice greeting." I said sarcastically walking out of the kitchen. The blank look in his eyes made me stop in my tracks. He roughly took my hand and led me to the couch in the living room. This came as a surprise; he was never rough with me.
"O.K. lets talk." I said cautiously as I slowly sat down on the couch. "I'm going to do a black out mission because the director…." "WHAT!" I cut him off, "we agreed we'd never take those!" I exclaimed, tears starting to pool out of my eyes. "The director said he needed one more person and I said I could go. I need the thrill! You can't keep me caged up forever Cameron!" I flinched at the tone of his voice as he said my full name again. "But… but you promised." I said in a quiet, soft voice. "Promises aren't meant to be kept. I'm supposed to leave right now. The director is providing us with clothes and disguises." He said walking out the door, without a goodbye or an "I love you." I watched his car driving away wondering what I had done.
That conversation happened five years ago. It was our last conversation. It still plays in my head almost everyday, each day it hurts me worse than the last. Five days after he left I got a call saying that he was M.I.A. Missing in action. They stopped searching for him about 2 years ago. I know I need to let him go but I just haven't lost hope yet.
I've been wondering lately if it was my fault he wanted to go on a blackout mission. Was he done with me? Did he want a divorce and think getting killed was the best way? Ok so the last one sounded stupid but it was one of the things running through my head. To stop those thoughts I had been going on a lot more missions, mission after mission. I never go on a blackout mission though, just because of that one stupid promise Zach and I made that he broke. I would never give up hope on finding him though, I needed to know those answers!
A/N: Sorry that was kind of short. I will try to get the next chapter uploaded in the next week(: