Chapter 1- Young and Hopeless

Everything in my world goes wrong. And I mean everything. Cindy Vortex, the slutty, insecure bitch…that's all I'll ever be, I thought to myself as I walked as slowly as possible to the hell we Americans like to call school. I finally got there and no surprise to me…I was late. But I don't care. It's just the usual. After I gathered my books from my locker I walked into class not even trying to be unnoticed. And lucky me I wasn't.

"Ms. Vortex, you're late", I heard my 800 year old math teacher, Ms. Ellis say.

"Wow, nice job on that one", I replied not even thinking as I answered the bitch.

I saw Jimmy glance at me and raise an eyebrow. I looked at him as if to say "What"? He just shook his head and looked away. I sighed.

"Well, Are you going to take a seat or are you just going to stand there Cynthia".

"For the last fucking time, my name is Cindy. Sin-Dee. Come on, you can say it".

She folded her arms, gritted her teeth, and then pointed to the door. That was my sign to go to the principals. This was the daily routine. I don't get why she has to say Cynthia all the time. Mom used to call me that and…uhh. Yeah, I don't live with my parents. By the time I got to the principals office, the second period bell rang. Oh, what the hell, forget the principal, as if Ellis will even know if I don't show up. The day went on as slowly as usual. I was walking home when Libs popped up, followed by Sheen and Jimmy.

"Hiya Cin, Ya wanna go to the mall with me and the boys"?

"Sure, I guess so", I replied with not even half as much enthusiasm as she spoke with.

"Cool".

The mall was pretty close so we all just walked there. I stared at Jimmy the whole way and he didn't even notice. Why is he so blind to my feelings, I wondered. Pretty soon another day was gone without any notion to Jimmy about how I felt. I loved him with a passion so deep nothing could quench it until I heard the long awaited words "I love you" back. I've been waiting so long and you'd think by now I would have done something about it, right? Wrong. I'm hopeless. I'm young and I'm hopeless. I'm lost and I know this. I'm going no where fast that's what they say. I'm troublesome, I've fallen, I'm angry at my father. It's me against this world and I don't care. Except for the part where I don't care, the chorus is pretty accurate to how I feel. I'm young, hopeless, and I know I'm not going anywhere fast, I am damn troublesome, I've totally fallen (and not just in love), and I will forever be mad at my father. Oh yeah, and I do feel like it is me against this world in an unending battle for victory. So far, the world's winning, but Libby's always telling me pretty soon something good will happen. If pretty soon means when I'm lying in my grave, then I totally agree with her 100 percent.

As I lay awake at night, I thought the greatest most wonderful thoughts about me and Jim. Ahh, how nice it must be to be with him. Mmm…if he only knew what I'd do for him.

"OMG guys look what I found!", was the first thing I heard from my beloved that morning. He was motioning to Libby and Sheen about some flyer.

"There's like supposed to be some like spooky place like a few minutes away or something like that. We should all go. It'd be really cool!

"No way. I ain't going unless Cindy comes". Great, guilt me into this Libs.

"No thank you", I replied.

"Then I'm not going".

"And neither am I", Sheen said after Libby said no.

My baby looked heartbroken.

"You just have to ruin everything Vortex, don't you?".

"WTF! It isn't like you even invited me. There's no way you can blame this on me"!

"Then come"!

"No".

"Please". He looked at me with his bright blue eyes and once again said "Please come". I couldn't possibly say no to that.

"Fine", I huffed.

"Haha, YES!". What a loser.

"When is it anyway?", I asked.

"Tomorrow, hehe, on Hallows Eve"

"Great", I mumbled.

The next night Jimmy picked us up and we drove off to god know's where.

"Yeah, Neutron. It's only a few minutes away", I mimicked him.

"Well, it was supposed to be", he muttered confused.

We finally arrived at our destination.

"Ohhh", Libby said in disbelief.