A/N: Hello! This will be my first fanfic and I hope you'll enjoy reading it... Please review! No flames!

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Anyways Gambatte Kudesai...

Confusions and Confessions

"Hey C.C, snap out of it." Lelouch said in a worried tone while cradling C.C's body with his arms and shaking her shoulders, trying to wake her up. It's been a long day filled with remorseful incidents which destroyed the hidden Geass Facility and nearly annihilated the C's world. The two were weary and exhausted after the explosion which left the woman unconscious for a brief period of time.

After a series of shaking C.C's shoulder, C.C partially regained consciousness. The young-looking woman felt dizzy and nauseous as she tried to stand. Lelouch saw her shaking and helped her regain her balance. Both of them locked eyes which eventually sent a red blush flushing on their cheeks then they realized their positions. A matter of seconds later...

"I'm sorry" Lelouch stuttered, removing his hand from C.C and gently helping her sit on the cold pavement. He fell silent staring at her blank face, unconsciously trailing his fingers down her cheek. He was very worried about her and the only thing he could do is caress her like that... Her face is emotionless but you could see the tiredness in her eyes. Her hair swayed in the wind and she suddenly rested her hand atop on his. Then out of the blue, the western wall crashed revealing Lelouch's troops in their knightmares, headed by the Vincent. They were carrying the Shinkirou.

(Vincent: a mass production 7th generation knightmare derived from the Lancelot. Piloted by Rolo)

(Shinkirou: an 8th generation transformable knightmare personally constructed by Lelouch. He made it for his and C.C's personal use. It is piloted by Lelouch and C.C.)

Lelouch was startled out from his reverie. He blinked and took his hand away from C.C's face and he walked towards the Vincent. "Sire, the Shinkirou is prepared along with your suit in the cockpit. We already finished our tasks and are awaiting your orders." said Rolo. Lelouch nodded in acknowledgement. He was about to call C.C to hop on inside the cockpit when he saw her sitting in the floor hugging her knees to her chest. And her head bent down resting on the top of her knees... Lelouch doesn't know what she is doing but he decided it's time to go and they better don't waste their time. If they stayed longer, there were chances that they would get caught by the Brittanian army and get involved into a fight. They should leave by now or else.

Noticing that C.C was absent minded and it isn't the right time to argue, he decided not to tell C.C what to do. He walked towards her and picked her up, carrying her in bridal-style towards the Shinkirou. C.C woke out of her thoughts and mentally thought. "Idiot... you did not have to carry me. I can walk on my own." But like what Lelouch thought... she did not push it. She just enjoyed it and wondered why Lelouch did that to her. Once they got inside their knightmare, he gently placed C.C at the front seat. The front seat was near on most of the controlling buttons. C.C knows what to do. She's the one who drives the knightmare. Lelouch changed to his Zero costume before he sat down at the upper back of the knightmare.

As they readied their knightmares, Rolo asked Lelouch "By the way brother, what happened back there? You've been missing a while ago... I was worried when you didn't respond to my calls. I thought that there was something wrong that happened, where have you been?". " I willl tell you later" lied Lelouch. They flew out of the facility and went on where the others were. While they were flying their knightmares, Lelouch asked Rolo, "What's our situation? Have you taken care of the corpses?". "All operations are successful and we already took care of the corpses, we'll transport them to the agency.". "What do you mean by we?" asked Lelouch. "O crap! I forgot about being Lelouch Lamperouge back there. I'm sure that they already knew that I'm Zero except Rolo. Damn you Rolo! have you forgotten that I didn't wore my costume when I went into the mission?... Oh well I could use Geass on them." Lelouch heard Rolo speaking. But it was halfway Rolo's statement. "Pardon me Rolo I wasn't listening. Kindly repeat what you have said." requested Lelouch.

"Brother, I said that I've already taken care of that. They are from the intelligence quarters. They could be trusted and they already knew your Zero. If you're still unsure, you could use your Geass or if you prefer, I will handle their assassinations" repeated Rolo. "That won't be needed. Anyway, I would be able to use them in case of emergencies, so they better be alive. ... About the corpses, I don't want to sent them in the intelligence area. I want to study them personally. Bring those to our secret hide out." Lelouch responded. And Rolo told Lelouch a yes- sir statement.

While floating in the air inside of their knightmares, Lelouch saw the black knights carefully transferring the corpse on a armoured vehicle. Rolo landed and told them the instructions that need to be done. One of the men from the intelligence volunteered to be the vehicle driver. Seeing the plans proceeding smoothly, Lelouch told Rolo to look out on them until they arrive at the head quarters. He told Rolo that he needs to go back to the head quarters ahead of them. (For he knew that he and C.C is tired and stressed out.) . Hearing an answer from Rolo, he went back to the Headquarters.

C.C piloted the Shinkirou while stuck in thinking about the happening a while ago. The trip was silent because of the two. Neither of them spoke until they reached the head quarters. C.C landed and parked the Shinkirou in the Knightmare Storage Area. The both of them got out and passed the hallways, noticing the aura their leader is currently having, they got out of the way when they know that Zero is going to pass. Lelouch opened the door for her and let her get inside first, following her, he stepped inside and closed the door behind him. He stopped walking when he reached his mask rack. He removed the thing on his head and gently laid its appropriate place. He also removed his facial cover pulling it down in the height of his throat. C.C sat on the couch where cheese-kun is placed. She grabbed the plush toy and hugged it tightly on her arms. Lelouch sat on the sofa opposite hers. Thick air of silence filled the room since they were back on the facility escaping the C's world. She was consumed by her thoughts. So was he. Both of them was reminiscing what happened to them back at the C's world. He was unconsciously staring at her.

C.C's P.O.V

What just happened back there? My wish was about to be granted, and just because of Lelouch's questions, I wasn't able to give Charles my code, why did I hesitate in the first place? I set him free and in fact, I stated that I wanted to save him, but why?

Damn it! How foolish of me. I have been waiting for death in decades (or maybe centuries). But why was I unnerved by his questions? Why did I feel hurt when I heard his voice pathetically trying to save me? It's obvious. If I give the code to Charles, he won't be able to defeat the old man. He'll lose the chances of creating a better world for Nunnally. But there is something in his voice telling me that it is not the answer. His voice was filled with worry, eagerness to know the truth and a hint of anger.

He was right, I could have pushed this hell of eternity to him and he will be able to defeat his father. In the first place I offered the code to him so he can live. Nevertheless, was he right? Was it just because of pity? Why is it that I am so much concerned about him? Is the truth that he will make me smile before I die? But why would he do that? There's no reason for him to do those kinds of wonderful deeds for a witch like me. If it is the truth, how would he do it? Most especially, what am I to you Lelouch? (Remembering his statement: C.C is my.. my..she is my..) I am just your accomplice. Nothing more...

Suddenly a voice came up to her head. "Do you really believe that he is just your accomplice?" asked the voice. "Of course. That is what we are called". answered C.C. "It's because of the contract that made you say so. I can tell it. Do you want to know the name of that feeling causing you to do unconscious acts of kindness and concern to others? The confusion that you feel, the feeling that doesn't have an exact definition because it doesn't have a single emotion, it is multiple and it varies. This is connected to other emotions making communications and connections to everyone." replied the voice at C.C's sudden answer. "I certainly want to know" C.C said. "You already know the answer a long time ago. But you buried it deep down in your heart to prevent from getting hurt all over again. If you're still damned to find the answer, it is what your Geass is." That was the final statement of the voice before it disappeared. Leaving C.C shocked knowing the answer to her questions.

Although she already answered her series of questions, new ones were building up. She asked herself, "Then if love is the answer, does it mean that I love Lelouch more than being his accomplice? But why? I don't want to suffer another loss again" Her emotions are building up. Happiness, sadness, worries, passion are all coming inside of her. Despite her immortal body, she still has more mortal traits left to her, especially human emotions. As long as she lives, she still feel and express. As the mountain of emotions filled her, she felt tears pouring down her cheek, causing her to hug cheese-kun tighter.

Like C.C, he is thinking about what happened to them inside the C's world. Co-incidentally, they happen to think some questions filled his mind as he tries to find out the right answers to it.

Lelouch's P.O.V

"It is sure a very exhausting day." (Sigh.. Lelouch is in deep thoughts, finding answers by looking back to what happened back there). "What was I about to say when I was at my knightmare? (Remembering the phrase: No! She's MY... she's My...) she's someone special and important. That is why I had the urge to protect her. I frantically asked her why she didn't bother to share her burden to me. I know that I am not capable of helping. But I want to be her outlet. Like how she became my crying shoulder in times of my downfall. I want to comfort her in the greatest way I could give. I saw tears building up in her eyes. She's receiving death with a painful look. I told her to smile and I even promised to make her smile before she dies... however how would I do that? It is difficult doing it especially she's not the type of an open person. I rarely see her true smiles. She's secretive and keeps all of what she feels to herself, problems and happiness. Both of it locked in herself. She's important to me, I'm concerned for her I'm willing to protect her, I care for her, It's because... It's because...I...I... I LOVE HER! FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE! Just seeing her tortured, abused, suffering, killing her brutally.. All of those! It brings fucking pain to my chest!. I love her but does she love me too? Does she feel the same way to me? I know that I have chances. She sent me to her memory world because she wanted to protect me even temporarily. She does that to people important to her. This means I'm one. Number two on my second visit to her memories, I discovered her geass. It is the Geass of Love. I know that she desires love because it became her geass. The Geass that you get varies, depending on the desire you have in yourself. And her true wish, presently she wishes to die. But I know that is only her alternative. Her wish is True love. She had been loved because of geass. Knowing those kinds of love aren't true she decided to stop and because of that the nun passed the code to her so she can rest in peace before C.C will have the chance to escape her hold. She then suffers the consequences of the code. Feeling unloved and living endlessly. She stopped yearning for her true wish and decided to give up using death as her substitute wish. Now that I know I love her I must know if she loves me too. If not I want to know if she will let me show it to her, to let her feel the happiness of being honestly loved by someone even if she will not love in return. I must ask her now before my chances would slip by. Opportunities like this, rarely comes to your life"... after this dawn of realization, he felt light and soothed knowing that for once or at least he had been honest to himself and to hers as well.

END Of P.O.V's

As Lelouch finished his "meditation" he became conscious of his current eye position. His eyes are fixed on her during and after his so-called meditating and he said: "just like I thought. She's stuck in thinking. I hope she doesn't regret her decision of not giving her code to that old man... I rarely had this chance of see her like this. Maybe I can stare for her just for a little while now."

Lelouch is enjoying his moment in staring at her then suddenly he saw tears in her cheeks. He concluded that she's crying. C.C noticed Lelouch is staring and his stares changed as he saw her cry. She saw that his stares contains worries and just before he could mutter any words or questions, she bowed her head reaching Cheese-kun's top and moving her head sideways using the plush toy as hanky or tissue. She finished wiping her tears secretly then tilted her head up to Lelouch's level and said: "you should stop the habit of staring someone Lelouch. Especially me. It sends goose bumps to my skin up to my bones and freaks me out." Then Lelouch blurted: "I'm not staring at you. I was just thinking deeply". Containing half truth and half lie, his cheeks flushed red and bowed so she cannot see his blushing face. Then C.C replied, "you are already good at lying to others but practice more when you're lying to me." By the end of her statement, she dropped cheese-kun beside her and stood.

She was about to walk towards the exit when her wrist was grabbed by Lelouch, making her freeze into her tracks. She was surprise by his sudden movement and she gave him a puzzled look. Lelouch tilted his head up, facing her then he said, "C.C we need to talk Please, do not go." C.C replied to him, "I'm not in the mood to do talking. Let me go." Lelouch tightened his grip on her and C.C gave him a Let-me-go-or-I-Will-kill-you look. He wasn't afraid and told her: "I know for sure that both of us needs clarification on what happened a while ago. We aren't talking to each other since we boarded the Shinkirou until now. It's because a lot of questions are drowning our minds that needs answers that can be find within each other's presence. Now, can you please spare me some of your time to talk with me? Please?" C.C won't give in and told him no. Then she forcefully removed his hand from her wrist and turned around started walking towards the door. Lelouch quickly stood. He walked towards and reached her. He then Grabbed her shoulders from her behind causing her to stop walking. C.C angrily turned around and shook off his hands from her shoulders and yelled at him "what's your problem? Can't you understand? I don't want to talk? Or do I need to explain it to you?" Lelouch thought mentally " If you are not letting me do this easily, then I guess I better do it the hard way" his brows met and he grabbed her shoulders again. (Putting more effort than the previous one) and forced her into the couch. C.C lost her balance and fell onto her back. Lelouch was on top of her. He loosened his grip on her shoulders. His facial features are now relaxed and his amethyst eyes contained sincere look on them that met her furious ones. He then muttered. "Please listen to me, just this once. I need to know some answers and I need to tell you something now. If I don't, I might lose chances or get scared at my second opportunity. Hearing this, her furious golden orbs became calmed. Knowing that Lelouch wouldn't give up this time because of his determination and their current physical position she gave up and told him "Fine I'll Listen and answer your questions." He sighed and asked "Promise me that you will be honest." C.C chuckled and told him "Alright I promise, but promise me that you will be honest at answering my questions too." Lelouch answered "I'll be honest. I promise you."

He thanked her and decided to start the conversation with a question. "Why did you send me to your memory world to be saved? The other you said that people sent there were ones important to you that you need to save even if it is temporary? Does that mean that I am important to you? C.C was drowned at his amethyst orbs but answered him honestly. "It is true. I sent you there because I wanted to save you because you are important to me. Now it is my turn to ask. How about you Lelouch? What was I to you? (Tears are forming on her eyes again)When you asked me to smile before I die and I didn't, you told me that you will make me smile how would you do it? At the end of her question, tears trickled down her pale cheeks. Lelouch cupped her cheeks he used his thumb to wipe her tears away. C.C placed her hand on top of his and Lelouch answered. "I was scared at that time. I thought that I was gonna lose you forever. You are very important to me and fear was eating me up. I haven't told you yet the words you've wanted to hear for so long and those words that had been stacked inside my heart a long time ago.

... I love you C.C. I'll make you smile in the most possible way I can. His words were full of sincerity and his eyes were telling the truth whole heartedly. C.C smiled and hugged him. She cried on Lelouch's shoulder and he hugged her back Tears were still flowing on her eyes, but those tears were not tears of uncertainty. It was replaced with tears of happiness. She finally said while her head is still on his shoulder "I love you too Lelouch". Her words were barely audible, almost like a whisper. Lelouch detached from the embrace and looked straight in her eyes. Amethyst orbs met golden ones. As C.C lay on the couch, Lelouch closed the distance between their faces and their lips met. He kissed her gently but passionately. C.C stroked his raven locks while Lelouch hand stroked her smooth cheek and the other stroked her emerald locks. They eventually broke the kiss and Lelouch lied down beside her. He lifted her head slightly then he slid his arm beneath making his own arm as her pillow and his hand landed on her shoulder. He shifted his position, and he faced her. So did her. She wrapped her arms around his neck. His other arm wrapped his waist. They are now facing each other.

Finally, Lelouch said "I know that I haven't yet met the requirements for being a code-bearer, but I just wanted you to share your burden with me. To tell you again that you are not alone. And besides that fact, I want to be the one to grant your wish, thinking that granting your wish would make you happy and me as well because I'm the one who granted it. But considering your present wish (dying). I think I wouldn't want to grant that. I would prefer to grant your true wish. The wish that you once wished. The wish you gave up on. Now that I am here I will grant it. I will be your warlock and love you forever. I love you witch." C.C was so happy hearing those words from him; her heart was overfilled with joy. After all those years that she lived, she now felt a genuine happiness that she hasn't felt before then she replied her warlock "I love you too my warlock." Smiles crept on their faces and stared each other. They stayed like that for a while until both fell asleep.

C.C woke up first. She found her warlock sleeping peacefully while a small smile tugged his lips. She strokes his hair and said "I'm happy that you had been able to love a person like me. You had been able to warm up my long cold heart. I know that you love me truly. So do I. I love you with all my heart but this has to stop. We can't deny the fact that your love won't suffice eternity. I don't want to get hurt all over again. I'm an immortal and you are a human. In any angle you look. We just don't fit each other. Before our relationship deepens, I must put a halt onto it. It would be better for both of us. I am the one who told you to keep your love ones apart from you so they won't get hurt or even use them against you. Now that I'm one of them, I must be apart from you. I know that you won't keep me away so I'm the one who is going to step away from you. It's not that I am leaving you and you won't see me again, It's that I will just love you from afar and so you must too. I love you Lelouch. I love you sincerely and you know that." She removed his arms away from her waist and sat carefully, avoiding him to wake up. She kissed his fore head and left with cheese kun. She left the quarters without him knowing about anything that she had just said, with a smile on his lips.

To be continued...

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