Author's note: I've only read the first three volumes of the manga, but I'm already a staunch member of the "Hotohori for king of everthing (not just Hong Nan)" brigade. (Why can't Miaka see how lovely he is? Why?) Anyway, I wrote this song for Hotohori at the end of Vol.3 after he has discovered Miaka and Tamahome together. ( I feel his pain!) If it looks as if it doesn't scan, that's because it is a real song with music, and it does scan when you sing it. If you want to see the music (in manuscript form) go to my website, (see my page here for the address) and sorry about the scribbly handwriting! BTW: I love reviews, but please, please, please don't give away the rest of the story! I know I have a heck of a long read ahead of me.


If I Could (Hotohori's song for Miaka)

Mist on my mirror

Clouds at the last

All I was hoping to see.

I had a vision –

Shades of the past –

That she would come here to me.


You were my sunshine,

You were my prayer.

I forgot everything when you were there:

Burdens of empire,

Silence and pain.

Just let me hold you again.


No more lying.

I never wanted you at my command.

I would not stop trying.

Could you see

The true me

You'd understand.


Birds in the springtime

Soar in the blue.

You made me feel I could fly.

I would have given

My life for you.

Now I can't bear to ask why.


Don't go kneeling.

Don't say you're sorry.

I don't want to hear.

I would die believing

Something –

Anything –

Would keep you here.


If I could just make you see

What sort of man I could be.