Hell in our Eyes.
Chapter 1: Heartbreak
September 16th 2005
I stared at him for what seemed like a century before blinking back tears. I would not cry in front of him, I could not.
"You...don't...want...me?" It came out one word at a time, slowly, like I didn't understand the meaning of my own words. Edward stared back at me with cold black eyes and I shivered almost to myself, I was sure he'd mistake my grief for the biting chill of the September wind. He stood perfectly still as he opened his mouth and muttered the one word that would tare my world to the ground.
"No." I felt my knees go week but I had to be strong. If I wasn't then he'd see me break down, and he'd laugh, he was leaving me, he never wanted me why wouldn't he find my suffering amusing. I knew even now, as he tore me apart with his chilling eyes and words, I would always love him – at least in a way I'd always love him even if by some miracle I did someday move forward with my life.
"Of course I'll always love you in a way, but this isn't working Bella. Your human, I'm not, I'm tired of pretending. My family agrees it is time to move on," he spoke shaking his head. I bit my tongue, he didn't want me I couldn't and wouldn't force myself on them. I was obviously a burden.
"If that is what you want," I whispered sadly. He sighed, running a hand through his hair and nodded. He moved towards me and I thought maybe he had changed his mind but he simply stroked my cheek and kissed the top of my head.
"Promise me you won't do anything reckless?" he asked. I gulped, could I really promise this? I didn't want to, he had broken his own, but I knew I would because he had asked.
"Of course," I said. He backed up and nodded to me. His eyes had lightened some, but they were still not the topaz I was used to.
"In return I will promise you something as well. I promise you'll never see or hear from me again, it will be as if I never existed." I cried inside, I didn't want to never see him again.
"Edward!" I cried out finally, looking up as I noticed a twig snap. He was gone, there was no trace of him anywhere. I gasped, my chest felt like it was being ripped opened and I felt my legs moving before I realized I was. My legs felt heavy and before I knew it I had tripped one to many times. It was raining when I tripped the last time, I was far from home I knew this, but I didn't know where. I cursed myself as I lay on the ground, why didn't I simply tell him the truth, it hurt so bad now he was gone – almost as bad as when..no I would not think of that. I should have ran after him, using my true speed, but I was so dazed, so confused, so broken that not even this made since to me. Shaking my head I gripped my fist tight, staring up into the new moon. I shivered, I had always hated new moons, it was on a new moon nearly six hundred years ago I was turned into...this.
Though I had never told the Cullens I was far from human. I was a vampire, but unlike the Cullen's I was an original. I don't know how the made vampires came about – this was what we referred to the other breed as – but our kind did not usually associate with them. I had been around before even Carlisle, I knew the in and outs of the world like only those older then me knew. My name was Kathleena Isabella Pierce, the older sister of Katherine Maria Pierce - though neither of us had been born as Kathleena and Katherine. I was born in England, at the Caernarfon Castle to Edward II and Isabella of France. Yes, that made me royalty in 1308, I was born on September 13th, 1308 and my life was very privileged. Of course I had a older brother Edward III, but only by a year. It was in 1317 that my mother fell pregnant again, but everyone knew it was not my father's child, my mother didn't even try to hide it.
On November 13th, 1317 my little sister, Katherine Maria Pierce was born – believe me it took mother a long time to get father to agree to adopting Katherine. Katherine looked very much like our mother, brown hair like my own, but she had brown eyes unlike mine and mother's lapis lazuli colored blue eyes. A few years latter our sister Eleanor was born and then Joan after her. In 1327 father died, and of course everyone suspected our mother had done him in, I knew she had. My mother was a manipulative bitch, I could be as well, but I had a heart unlike her and I feared Katherine was being molded into our mother's mirror image.
It was this same year that I met a vampire, I do not know who he was, but he turned me. I never saw him again, and truthfully I'd much rather kill him if I ever did see him. I was nineteen when he turned me, I left behind my husband and two children. My husband was no prince, simply a knight, after father died I wanted nothing to do with my tittle. Of course simply because I left doesn't mean Katherine became Lady or Princess, she would only gain this tittle in the event that Eleanor or Joan died. My husband was sweet, a knight of my father's court until he died, Sir Charles Swan. Charlie was related to me, he was the decedent of my oldest son, Edward Charles Swan – named for my father and brother, I did find it amusing that the boy I fell for had the same name. Maybe this was why our relationship did not last. I sighed as I slowly stood up, trying to regain some of my dignity. I was Victoria Pierce I did not wallow over men, they were beneath me. I sighed, I guess I was going back to my real name – it was almost two centuries ago I decided to go by my middle name, more so Bella as my full name brought back bad memories.
"This is not my day..." I said, shaking my head.
"It really isn't dear Bella," a girlish bubblegum voice broke through and I turned to see Victoria, the red headed bitch in front of me. I glared, backed up slightly and gripped my fist. I hadn't hunted in a while, at least not fresh blood only blood bags when I could get them and larger animals, not exactly my kind of meal.
"Oh kitty has claws, to bad they won't cut me," she teased and I growled, shifted some so I was crouched slightly. She laughed and launched herself forward, I twisted to the right and threw myself at her, hitting her and throwing us into a tree. The tree snapped under our weight and I punched her in the face, before letting my face morph, becoming vain like and my fangs grew. She gasped jumping away from me.
"Funny, I could say the same thing," I droned, tilting my head to the side slightly. I probably looked more like my sister then ever before as I hissed mockingly at her.
"Wh...what are you?" she asked, her red eyes where wide in fear. She was edging back but I would not allow that, not in this lifetime.
"I'm a vampire darling, and your end," I replied sweetly and shot forward. She turned, trying to run and I was just a bit to fast for her as I grabbed her arm and pulled her to me. My other hand gripped her neck as she came face to face, her face was so close to mine now that it could be looked upon oddly. I smiled at her and kissed her check.
"Sorry Vicky, but you give us ladies bad names," I said and twisted her arm behind her back and then pulled, her arm came clean off. She screamed and I dropped the arm as she lunged to bite my throat and I twisted my wrist quickly and snapped her neck clean off. Her body fell to the floor soundlessly and I looked into her shocked red eyes. I shook my head and she snapped her teeth at me, I chuckled.
"I might just keep you dear, at least part of you," I said, sitting her decapitated head and with long red hair, which was beautiful even I had to admit, on a fallen log and I pulled out a lighter. The lighter was a zippo which had a ace card front and had the phrase 'I wouldn't bet against Alice' scratched into it. I had the lighter for years but the phrase was recent. I flicked it open and happily lite her arm and body alight. The venom filled carcases lite up like the fourth of July and I looked to where Victoria's head was watching in horror.
"Lets get you to your new home lovely," I teased.
"Fuck you, monster!" she hissed at me. I chuckled, I had been called worst. The good thing about this, I was being distracted from my pain. I ran with her to the Cullen's house, I wasn't surprised to see it deserted. I went to the area under a tree on the southern side of the house and dug a hole about six too seven feet deep and dropped it in, she hissed at me as her head bounced slightly in the hole.
"Maybe in a few years I'll come back and bring you a more...convenient confinement. But for the moment...enjoy the worms," I said laughing, I don't know if I ever sounded more like my mother and sister then in this moment, but then again, the apple didn't fall far from the tree.
I would be leaving this town, I thought as I covered her protesting head. I knew Charlie would be sad, but he would understand. I didn't have to worry about this bitch, neither did the Cullens in the event that she was after them as well. Sighing I stood up, dusting herself off in distaste.
"I guess there is only one thing to do," I mumbled to myself as I took off for the house. I broke the lock on the door, silently telling my apologizes to Esme and Carlisle as I entered. I looked around and felt tears enter my eyes at the stuff left behind. Everything was here, even his piano. I tried not to think about it as I walked to Carlisle's study. I sat at his desk and leaned back in his leather chair. Did this even matter, did they deserve some since of peace by this after what they had done?
If nothing else I knew the others did, even if Ed..he did not. I opened Carlisle pad of paper and took out a old fashioned fountain pen, and with neat calligraphy, my natural hand writing I began a letter of my life.
Dear Cullens,
This may come as a shock. You are not used to being surprised, and I don't know if Alice has seen me sitting here and writing this. I can hope she has, as this may not look like my writing, at least not the chicken scratch your used to. I have to admit something, I am not human. Bella Swan does not even exist. Charlie does have a daughter, but her name is not Isabella, and she is only thirteen years old. Her name is Isabel Grace Swan, her mother is not Renee, but Charlie's ex-wife Grace Higgins, Renee's younger sister. I am sorry for this lie I have told, but neither am I Isabella Swan nor am I human.
I do not believe it is appropriate to reveal what I am over a letter. For I do not know If it will get to you or someone else. I will say we are not that different, like a lion to a tiger. I will leave you with my name, I was born Kathleena Isabella Pierce in England a long, long time ago. If we shall ever meet again, I shall explain everything. Until then my friends,
Sincerely,
K.P
I sealed the note by pricking my finger and letting my blood, just a drop fall onto the letter so they would be sure it was I who wrote it. I quickly got up after this, pulled out a key which I knew Carlisle kept hidden in a false book in his desk and walked over to a painting of Esme and slide it to the left, leaving a vault behind it. I smiled sadly, I hated stealing from the Cullens but I needed a bit of cash to get out of Forks.
I opened it, only taking about 20,000 not even a dent on their bank account. Hell, I think Alice spent more then that in a day of shopping. I was about to close the vault when a white and pink envelope with my name on caught my sight. I knew it was from Alice upon seeing it. I took it out, closed the vault and after placing the money in a bag I found and on the end table I opened the letter. It smelled of rain and honeysuckles, Alice's scent.
Bella,
I am not going to try and understand why my visions have taken a odd turn. When we first met I was sure I saw you as one of us, I still see you in our future but it has changed. It keeps alternating between you and Edward, to you and some tall dark haired man with piercing blue eyes, and then the oddest one of you and both of them. I no longer see a definite future of you with Edward, but I also have not seen a future for Edward without you. I know that if you are reading this we have left.
I don't know what my brother has told you but I promise you. I still love you as I always have, and I can say the same for my family. Esme will be extremely distraught for some time, even Rose will be effective. Albeit not as deeply, but did you expect anything less from our blonde bitch – and I say that with all the endearment of a sister. I know we will cross paths soon enough, I don't know why or when or where but I do know we will. I also see your letter, Kathleena? Really?
I assume we will have to get used to that, I am curious about how long you've been around? For a British woman you certainly don't have an accent.. I love you Bella,
Alice
I lowered the letter and smiled. At least I knew that most the Cullens still wanted me. Her letter intrigued me though, who was the dark haired man she mentioned? I found it hard to believe I'd ever be with Edward again, but maybe, I did love him I knew this but was that love strong enough to withstand this storm? Shaking my head I pocketed the letter and grabbed the money before leaving the house, making sure to make it look as if I had never been there. I ran home after that, arriving just as Charlie was on the phone with Billy Black. He looked up as I entered, he noticed the look on my face instantly and he turned back his attention to Billy.
"Never mind Billy, she is home." I watched as he nodded. He did look a lot like me considering I was his many times great grandmother. You'd think after so long my genetics would be long gone. But he had inherited my hair, his eyes though where my fathers, and unfortunately similar to Katherine's. His daughter, Isabel was my spitting image at thirteen, she even had my eyes.
"Grams, what the hell is going on?" Charlie asked, as he hung up the phone. I raised a eyebrow at him. So observant just as I was, I was hardly surprised Charlie had noticed the charade was up, it made me wounder how the Cullens had never caught on? I mean, no father and daughter was that...uncomfortable around each other...nor did the daughter refer to their father with first names, even out of the father's presents. It just wasn't done, I guess I could not begrudge them though, no one had noticed either.
"The Cullens, they've left."Charlie's eyes widened and he walked closer to me, looking me over for what I assume to be injury. I had none, not even the wound from my birthday was still there, I simply had it wrapped as a prop of sorts.
"Without you?" he asked, surprised. I sighed, tears came to my eyes but I pushed them back I had to move on, had to move on! Gripping my hands into fist I finally let my emotions come back to me, crashing around me as I collapsed to the floor, falling into Charlie's arms as he caught me. He was on his knees with me in his arms, balling my eyes out. I didn't say much, simply, he's gone.
I was surely in hell. I continued to cry, wishing for sleep to come but it never did. Even as I drifted off, I did not lose consciousness, and I did not resurface.
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Update as of Oct. 31st 2010 - I have changed Bella's real name, instead of being Victoria, it is Kathleena - like Katherine and Elena put together, Pronounced Kath - Lain - Ah, or if you prefer, Kath - lean - Ah.
A/N: Hi everyone. Here is my new story. I've been trying to get this out for a while. It is a Twilight/Vampire Diaries crossover which I hope will take off. I also have a Banner made for it, that will be on my profile by tommarrow. I'm about to hit the hay, very sleepy. I will say that Bella looks the same as always, possibly more filled out, which you can use your imagination there and her eyes are not brown, she wares contacts to get that effect. Her eyes are naturally a light blue the color of the stone which allow the Vampires to walk in the sun. Like Book Katherine's, but unlike the Book it is Bella or Victoria as is her real name who has these eyes, while this Katherine and Elena look like the TV series actress, Nina Dobrev. Charlie is a desendent of Bella's, she had two children before her death. Edward and Margaret Swan.
Edward and Isabella, The King and Queen are real people. I do not own them, as they are long dead. I looked it up, as are Edward III, Elenore, and Joan. I just put Katherine and Bella into the family to give their past a twist. If you have any questions fill free to ask. Oh one more thing, This is a Damon/Bella/Edward love triangle, with a ending of Damon/Bella. Don't worry Edward will get his happy ending as well, just not with Bella. Please be aware that she will be called Victoria, and it does not mean Twilight Victoria because Bella has dealt with the redheaded bitch. I will give her a nickname to cut down on confusion.