A.N.:

Well look out ppl, here it comes, yet another Shizuru x Natsuki story.

I have read some quite good ones. I hope this one will turn out as good as those :)

Anyway, the inspiration for the tittle of this ff is the song by Mike Oldfield - Moonlight Shadow but nothing from this fic has to do with the song,um..I guess..xD

it's just the song carved into my brain as I was hearing my brother play it on his guitar for the n-th time that month...

anyway, where was I? oh yeah, shutting the f**k up xD

I do not own Mai HiME :P

read, enjoy and review ^^

"Shizuru!"

The girl suddenly woke up from a very strange dream she could not quite remember. The only thing she could remember was hearing her dear Natsuki's voice calling her name.

"Natsuki." she whispered the name into utter darkness, feeling her lips swell from moving to form the sounds for the girl's name.

"Natsuki…" the crimson eyed girl whispered again, feeling her eyes watering and her heart aching. Oh why? Why was she feeling like this, this Natsuki, her Natsuki, was not here when needed. 'Well, she's not here most of the time when I need her… And we haven't heard from each other since I graduated…' But she just couldn't stay angry at her. Ever. These days they were acting different, distant. None of them tried to contact the other, but Shizuru very much wanted to. 'I don't know how she will react. Maybe she is doing fine without me, maybe she does not need me. But would she ever understand that I very much need her…?' She did not know if she could handle this distance and not talking to her beloved any longer.

Shizuru needed Natsuki even more than air itself. She needed to see her, talk to her, hear her breathe, anything! She could not live peaceful nor with less agony in her life, without that girl. She was the air she needed to breathe; the food she needed to survive; the water that kept her sane and alive. "Did Natsuki not understand those things? Am I not good enough for Natsuki? What does Natsuki really need…?' She wondered endlessly trough her tears for a couple of nights now. She even cried herself to sleep a few nights. This night, thankfully, was not like those, but she barely fell asleep thinking about her beloved. "Natsuki." She whispered once again right before she left her mind go into sleep once more.

Raven haired girl was on her bike riding as fast as she could. Going nowhere, as usual. Her thoughts went nowhere as well, and she eventually stopped thinking while driving.

And as time passed by it seemed that her bike was leading her to Shizuru's place. Her body flicked by the thought of the chestnut haired girl. 'Shizuru… what are you doing…?' She stopped near the entrance and looked up to the older girl's window. She barely noticed the nearly full moon glowing right beside the window she was looking at so fiercely. "Shizuru…" she said quietly still looking at the latter's window. 'I… must see her… I guess something brought me here for a reason…? I really am not sure what the hell… but I know that I want to see her. Now. Should I…?' She came closer to the building wall. There was a ladder alike thing standing against the wall, holding some plants which were crawling up against it.

Natsuki took a deep breath and started climbing up to the window of the girl she wanted to see. As slow as she could, she took one step at the time, being careful not to fall or make the thing she was climbing fall from the wall it was leaning to. 'I am so fucking lucky her window is not too high. Damn, if I fall from here I could break something. And break it gooood… Wait! Don't fucking think about that in the middle of fucking sneaking into a girl's room!' The raven haired girl sighed. 'What the hell am I thinking anyway? Why am I going to sneak into Shizuru's room? What am I? Really, Kuga, what has gotten into you?' and as she stepped through the girl's window, in an instant she figured out what came over her.

She missed her. As much as she did not want to admit, she really did, a lot. Every day without her felt different, dull, not worth of Natsuki's attention. Those days she felt weird, the time passed slow, everything was so silent, it was…lonely.

Yes, she had the others, the rest of the ex HiME girls, and Mai was with her the most of the time, but that was not it. That was not like she used to be with Shizuru. She liked what she has with her. And Shizuru knew her better than anyone else, body and soul. Natsuki shivered slightly at the 'body' comment. 'Shizuru, do you miss me like I, obviously, miss you…?' She slowly came to the older girl's bed and carefully sat down on the edge. 'If you know me so well, why haven't you called me, visited me? Do you have time for yourself at all…?'

Looking at her sleeping face, Natsuki felt a warm and a gentle smile, crawl on her face. 'Really, do I feel goofy right now… Ugh. If somebody saw me like this…' Her breathing and heart stopped as she felt and saw the sleeping girl moving on her bed. The girl moved to lie on her side facing the terrified dark haired girl. Natsuki let out her breath and remembered how to breathe once more. 'It's pretty late, I should have come earlier. She must be tired of those… college stuff. Poor girl.' Her hand moved on its own and rested on the sleeping girl's face. The green eyed beauty did not notice it even when her hand started to caress the older girl's cheek. She was lost in her thoughts, and she just felt… 'Loved. Kind of. I guess this is it, right? Love? Like my mother, but different. I guess I didn't give it a lot of thought until now… I really… am grateful. Even now, while you sleep, I can feel you radiate with love, care. I… thank you… for loving this stupid stubborn girl… You know… I still don't understand this… thing. But I know this. You are my most precious person.'

She just stared into the chestnut haired girl's sleeping face for a few moments and finally snapped out of what ever state she was in, and slowly lifted her hand from the latter's cheek, blushing fiercely. 'THANK GOD, nobody saw that! Damn, I think I would have died…' Natsuki slowly stood up and started walking towards the window, but suddenly stopped. Her head turned towards her sleeping friend and she whispered. "Shizuru, I'm sorry I came so later tonight. I'll…make sure I come a little earlier next time I guess…"

"Ikezu…"

Natsuki jumped and flushed hard once again. 'What! What. The. Hell? What has she just said? Is she dreaming or something? Oh, GOD, PLEASE…' She slowly turned around and saw the girl's eyes were closed. Her gaze went up and she moved her lips to form a 'thank you'.

Looking at Shizuru she felt her body move on its own again, and she brushed the latter's hair from her face. She flushed even more if she could, hearing the latter whispering her name. 'Geez, what is with this girl? Does she want to give me a heart attack? Geez, calm down Kuga and get the hell out of here already, before you wake her fucking up for real this time!' Natsuki went to the window and heard the girl move on her bed but did not turn around, and continued 'sneaking' out.

"Natsuki?" The raven haired girl heard her name again and she hurried down to her bike feeling her pulse rise by the second. 'What the hell! Is someone trying to kill me? Damn, when we meet again I will totally talk her into getting a place that is closer to the ground. I can't keep up like this… WAIT! What the fuck am I saying? The fuck, Kuga! The fuck! Go clear your head, idiot.' She pushed her bike as far away from Shizuru's place as she could and started it. 'I guess tomorrow this will not sound so bad… Yeah, tomorrow, this will be ten times stupid, silly and worse…' She sighed at the thought and continued her ride.

Shizuru woke up hearing Natsuki's husky voice but thought that she was still dreaming so she whispered back."Ikezu."

'For coming into my dreams for the n-th time and at the very beginning you're leaving. Going away from me, when I need you the most.' She felt a hand brush some hair from her face. "Natsuki…" Shizuru mumbled the first and only thing that was on her mind, but was too tired to say anything else or even open her eyes.

Hearing footsteps made her eyes snap open. "Natsuki?" she said as she saw a shadow disappearing from her window into the moonlight. 'I must have imagined it all… Oh, Natsuki, if you only knew how much I miss you. How much I need you… What would you say to all these things? Nothing? Ikezu…' Turning away from the window, she tried to make herself comfortable on her queen sized bed and hugged the light red cover tight to herself. She had to fall asleep as soon as possible; she has to go to classes early in the morning. The girl needed sleep, her brain needed rest, but as time passed by, she figured as long as she was thinking of that special dark haired girl, she will not fall asleep soon. "Ikezu." Shizuru whispered closing her eyes, concentrating all her thoughts on something revolving college, and praying, by the way, for another dream with her beloved.