I sadly do not own Kuroshitsuji.

If I did…Lizzy would be dead, Ciel and Sebastian would be living in a town house, Grell and William would have twenty babies and Undertaker would have a life.

Running a hand through his hair, Ciel watched as Sebastian bent down and gave his girlfriend a kiss. As he watched the two together he could feel his heart break a bit more. Over the past 113 years since Hanna had made a contract with Alois Trancy stating that neither demon could take Ciels soul turning him into a demon himself. Since that day everything had turned from bad to worst. Sebastian had tried to kill him, even if he claims he didn't.

His mouth never held his teasing smirk, his eye held nothing but pure hatred for the little demon. The older demon would try to avoid him at all cost and would give short replies to anything the younger had said. It had gotten worst over time. They would fight and the older would leave and return back as nothing had happened.

They had to move from place to place due to the fact that they would never age. In the past two years Sebastian had come home one day with a women wrapped around his arm. Ciel watched as Sebastian lead her to their living room and talked with her late into the evening. From his room he could hear his laughter that had disappeared for what seemed like forever. Before Ciel had been turned into a demon he had found himself doing one of the most sinful acts he could ever think of. He had started to fall in love with his demonic butler.

At first he had thought of it to be absurd, but over time he came to realization that he was in fact in love with his butler. While he was sitting in the dark with Alois he thought that maybe this was a good time to tell Sebastian that he had been in love with him but when he tried to kill him his heart broke at the thought that Sebastian only cared for the soul he was wrongly cheated out of. Every time Sebastian would look at him with hate he would silently tell himself to hold back the tears in the back of his eyes.

Ciel would stop talking to Sebastian staying out of the demons way making sure that he was hardly ever seen only when Sebastian got back from somewhere he would great him but only get a hated look back. He had long ago stopped making such orders for Sebastian to do anything for him but dress him. He had long ago told Sebastian to stop bathing him, every time he did he was no longer soft but roughly leaving behind red marks that he thought didn't hurt the younger.

Shaking his head Ciel looked back out the window to see Sebastian coming back inside. Walking down the stairs and finally reaching the bottom he stopped on the last step. Sebastian's smirk fell of the second he turned around to face his eternal curse.

"Hello Sebastian."

Sebastian looked at Ciel and gave him a long stair before making his way past him without a single word. It was the way things normally went and every time it broke Ciels heart just a bit more. He was starting to wonder if this was going to last for the rest of eternity.

'Of course it will. He hates even the sight of me,' he scoffed to himself as he walked back up the steps to his room to wait for Sebastian to dress him. Of course the Earl knew how to dress himself but decided to keep that information to himself. As he sat on the edge of the bed Ciel was lost in his own thought when Sebastian had walked into the room. No words were said as the older one made his way around the room before quickly changing the younger one. Ciel simply watched as Sebastian did as he always did with a scowl on his face. While Sebastian had been changing him his hand had not so softly been moved earning a small hiss from the younger.

"That hurt, please be more careful." The younger said as he looked at the one changing him. Sebastian had paused for a moment as if he had understood his request but simply brushed it past him and roughly but quickly finished. Standing straight back up he looked down at the younger with almost a menacing look.

"You shouldn't feel a thing. You're perfectly fine." He almost gritted out.

Ciel face held one of shock before it grew into anger as Sebastian made his move to get out of his bedroom.

"Hey! I only asked for you to be more careful it's not like I asked you to go and find me needle in a hay stack." He yelled at his butler.

Sebastian stopped and turned around facing him.

"Stop being such a child," was all he said with a hard face before turning back around.

Ciel at this point was furious. Just as Sebastian was opening the door to the hallway Ciel had grabbed his wrist. Sebastian out of instinct swiftly turned around and with a flick of his hand sent Ciel into the wall across the other side of the room. He simply looked as the younger struggled to get back onto his feet.

'Pathetic,' he thought to himself. He often thought of ways to simply kill the younger one or thought of what would happen to him if he had just up and left the younger one. Perhaps another demon would find him and do as he pleased with the little brat. At that thought it brought a small smirk to his face.

Struggling to get up Ciel could see a smirk on the older demons face. It infuriated him how cruel he could be and he had to often remember that they were demons.

"Why would you do that! Do you honestly enjoy hurting me so much!" He yelled at him.

Sebastian's smirk fell as a frown appeared on his face.

"Honestly I do. I often think of ways to make your life a living hell just as you have done for me." He sneered.

Ciel only looked at him as he could feel the tears start to build in the back of his eyes.

"Really?" he asked. "Tell me Sebastian how do you think of me?"

The older demon only chuckled as a sinister smile came on his face. "What do I think of you? What do I think of the little brat who deprived me of a soul I worked so hard to get. Please don't make me laugh, I think of you as my eternal curs of course. I think about how you have bound me to a littler brat who can't do anything. I think of ways to rip you apart piece by piece. I also think about how much I hate you." He said as he walked towards the younger.

"I think, no, wish about how much better eternity would be if I didn't have a little brat around me, and how it would be amazing if one day you were gone." He finished looming over him.

Ciel could only just try and hold back the tears. 'Is that really what he wishes for? For me to just be gone?' He looked down letting his bangs cover up his face as he could feel Sebastian standing over him.

Sebastian had started to calm down a bit too where he noticed how close he was to the boy. Looking down he could see how scared and possibly hurt the younger was. For a moment he almost felt bad for the child but then he remembered that the child was nothing but a burden to him. His heart almost broke when he heard his voice when he spoke once more.

"Y-you can go know. I don't need your help getting into bed again tonight." The younger almost but whispered.

Turing around Sebastian finally pulled the door open before roughly shutting it behind him. Ciel all but fell down to his knees pulling them towards him and hiding his face in his knees. He let a small sob leave his mouth as he sat in the silence. After some time Ciel had manage to make his way to his bedroom window looking outside as it started to rain.

'If that is what he really wishes,' he thought to himself. Making his way towards his closet he pulled out a small duffle bag not planning to take very much with him. He found an outfit to wear before writing a small note.

I never wished to be your eternal curs.

I will happily give you your wish if that is what you so desire.

I'm sorry that you can never have my soul.

Sincerely,

Ciel Phantomhive

He finally let the tears he was holding back fall as he placed the note on his bed and walked over to the window. Looking back into his dark room he smiled at the thought that he was at least being able to let his butler, the one who he so wrongfully fell in love with, something from him that he truly wanted. With that he opened the window and hopped out into the cold rain.

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