I sat there in on my chair thinking, about my first year at Culver Creek. I thought going there was going to be a game changer. I was right about it being a game changer. What I didn't know was that it was going to leave me with a scar. A scar that could not hurt me physically, but mentally. The scar is a memory, it is filled with guilt and pain. Guilt which makes me feel sad, hurt, angry. I'm haunted by how Chip and I where so reckless, on how we let her go. Not giving a damn thought on how much booze she had, or how late it was. But what pains me the most is that I never actually talked to someone who was an adult. About what happened that night, before she was killed.

School broke out about a week ago. My thoughts where broken when I heard a knock on my door.

"Miles you still haven't unpacked your box of school books. That are lying on your desk." Dad said with a smile.

"oh right I was just getting to that" I sighed.

"Okay lunch will be about thirty minutes" he said then he closed the door.

I let out a long breathe that I didn't know I was holding. I rumbled through the pile of books, seeing how many there were I figured there was at least a dozen, all workbooks. My hand wondered to my religion, my fingers flicked through the pages aimlessly. That's when I saw it. A white envelope towards the end of the book. It slid out onto my desk, written on the front in her handwriting was my name. Pudge. My heart rate start to pick up, its like the morning when I found out she died I thought to myself. Bravely I reached for the envelope, my hands started to tremble slightly as I picked it up. Then without a second thought I opened the envelope. Inside the evelope tucked away there was a neatly folded piece blue lined paper. My hands clumsily unfold the paper, I gasphed because there was a letter addressed to me. Neatly written in pen It read:

Dear Pudge,

If you have found this, it means I have escaped the labyrinth. For whatever reason I left you, the Colonel, and Takumi, I'm sorry. I have a feeling that the reason I left you is that I couldn't accept how many times I fucked up. I know it's normal to feel that you've fucked up on days when did something good, like taking booze.

I think the biggest thing I messed up was not being to save my mum, she was one of the best people I knew besides from you,The Colonel and Takumi. I want you, The Colonel, and Takumi to smile. Because the world needs more people that smile. It is my final request to you, is to forgive me. For what I did. I know life is short, even when you have you're whole life ahead of you. Please make you life worth while living, just because I messed up doesn't you have to follow.

Again I'm sorry for leaving you.

Alaska Young

I was stunned. Tears were trickling down my cheeks. She knew. I thought. I quickly wiped my hand to get rid of the tears. My breathing settled down to a normal rate. I had forgiven Alaska, a bit over a week ago. But apart of me is still in pain, on how she left us. Knowing that she asked me for forgiveness, and that I have. What I have learned from Alaska. Is that we all make mistakes, but in the end. The only way out of the labyrinth of suffering is to forgive.