Just a story that popped into my head while I was supposed to be doing homework =). I own nothing blah blah blah.

So this a All Human Jacob/Leah pairing. It may be a bit OOC but I will try not to get too extreme. Leah and Sam are 20, Jacob is 19. I absolutely love Jacob and Leah and I absolutely HATE Bella and Nessie. Breaking Dawn caused me to become Team Tyler's Van! That is one sexy van=P. Now on with the show. Reviews are always loved.

"A father is someone who can take the place of all others,

but whose place no one else can take"

The beaming sun shone right through the peak in my curtains and directly into my face. I grumbled and turned over, bringing the pillow I was resting on over my face. I laid there for a few more minutes before I heard voices downstairs. Intrigued I sat up slowly and strained my ears to listen more closely. Damn, I thought and jumped out of bed. Not caring that I was wearing nothing but a pink tank top and some tiny boy shorts.

I rushed out of my room and into the kitchen to find Sam trying to aid my mother with breakfast. Sam was obviously struggling to keep a smile in his face while my mother looked about ready to murder him.

"Wh-what are you doing here?" I asked him, annoyance in my voice. His face lit up when he saw I was up.

"Just thought I'd come help out your mom. Seth and you hardly ever help her with breakfast, I figured she could use the extra hands," he said. My mother snorted loudly. I shot her a warning look. Sam ignored my mom's snort and came to give me a kiss on the cheek.

"Leah here are some pancakes, save some for Seth," she said. "I am headed to work. I'll be back in a little bit."

"Bye mom, thanks," I said, talking a seat at the table.

"Bye Mrs. Clearwater," Sam said politely.

"Goodbye Samuel," she said coldly. Once she was out the door I turned to Sam.

"What the hell?" I demanded.

"I need to win her over again, Lee-Lee," he said, taking a bite out of a pancake.

"I will not be surprised if she never forgives you," I grumbled. "She is pissed I don't hate you too." I looked down at the plate of pancakes in front of me. I forgave him I told myself. I am over it, he apologized for it. It was a one time thing.

"I don't blame her. You should hate me too," he said, taking my hand. I cringed slightly at his touch.

Seth walked into the kitchen. Once he saw Seth his happy face turned into a deep frown.

"Oh the dog is here," he mumbled.

"Seth!" I hissed. Will this hostility never go away. Its been almost seven months.

"Oh come on, Lee," Seth snapped. "The guy sleeps with your cousin and you just sit there and take it? What the hell I thought you were better than that." I glanced at Sam who paled significantly. Instead of scolding Seth I simply looked back down at my pancakes.

"Whatever, Lee," Seth said, standing up. "You deserve better than this jerk. You are going to realize that soon." Seth retreated to his room and slammed the door. This outburst was not uncommon. Seth and my mom couldn't stand to be in the same room as Sam after what he had done.

Seven months ago my cousin Emily was visiting. We went down to a huge party at First Beach with Sam. The three of us got completely wasted. The next morning I woke up to find Sam and Emily naked together in the guest room. Sam claimed he didn't remember anything. I was furious at first, I refused to speak to him for a week. Then suddenly my father had a heart attack and died. Suddenly I was all alone. I was depressed and didn't know where to turn. So I went to Sam and he was there for me through everything just like he had been before the whole Emily thing. I needed to feel needed and Sam gave me that. He was so desperate not to lose me. I have been with him for five years. He was familiar to me and the thought of losing him along with my father was unbearable. So I took him back, convincing myself that it didn't change anything. It was just a mistake and we still loved each other completely. Truthfully I knew I didn't believe that. I knew I would never love Sam in the same way, which was why I allowed my family to talk to him the way they did. But something inside of me refused to let him go. For now I needed him, even if I didn't love him. I was afraid I'd always feel this way. I don't know how to function without him, and I didn't know if I could ever try.

I was stuck in this hole of familiarity. My life with Sam was safe. He wanted to get married, but I was reluctant. The part that was the most painful is he believed I had forgiven him, he began acting the way he did before the whole thing. And I was too afraid of losing him I never said anything. I, Leah Clearwater, had turned into a push over.

"Well, Lee-Lee, I got to get going," Sam said standing up. "I'm meeting up with Jared."

I simply nodded, still lost in my own mind.

"We are just going to hang out at his house," he said.

"Wait, we were supposed to spend the day in Port Angeles," I said. "You are ditching me again?"

"Come on, Lee-Lee," Sam said. "I haven't hung out with Jared in so long. I promise tomorrow we will go."

"No forget it," I snapped, standing up. "I'll just go alone." Sam grabbed my arm and yanked me to him.

"You can't go to Port Angeles alone," he warned. I freed my hand from his grasp.

"Watch me," I hissed, then turned and walked to my room, slamming to door shut. I stood there trying calm myself down until I heard the front door open and close. I slid down my down and hugged my knees to my chest. I looked up to my picture of my dad on my nightstand and felt the tears trickling down my cheeks.

"Daddy," I whispered. "I need you."