Anything But
A/N: Spoilers for 100. I can't just stand back and watch… First person Roy. Companion to "In a Heartbeat"
I've never felt more helpless.
There was always something I could do, no matter how small. I could always manage to make it even a little better.
Not this time.
I'm frantic, my heart is racing. I see it, it registers, and yet I still can't believe it.
This has always been in the back of my mind—always the blackest possibility. I swore I'd do all I could to prevent it, even knowing that she should take second string to my goal.
And yet, I can't just devalue a life like that. After Maes, I refused to let another person die for me, no matter how indirect the relation to my actions.
I'm pathetic. Between grasping at any medical knowledge I have and working through the method for human transmutation out of desperation, I'm praying. Actually praying. As if something out there will come to my aid. As if it even exists!
I know I'll have to carry on either way, even if it comes to her death, but I refuse to accept it until I know it to be the irreversible truth.
I've got to do something. There's always something…
But what?
A/N: My other bit of getting it out of my system. Looks like Roy's got a bit more hope than Riza. Then again, he's not the one possibly bleeding out. And as far as I can tell, there's no real immediate fix. Hoping for a miracle, but aware that it might not go that way… and a whole month until we know for sure. I don't know if I'll survive!