That fact of it is that what you do or what you've done doesn't matter. You didn't do it to be some kind of hero. (and the thought is laughable, really, you, a hero, that's Flynn's job.)
You just wanted…you just…you wanted to be good enough for them. You're not. But you wanted. Maybe that's why you're still here.
Sodia was only doing what you were doing. You are a villain, and you do deserve a dagger in the back. Or the gut.
Really, stabbing you was the least she could have done. From the look in her eyes, you could tell she hadn't even really wanted to do that much. She could have slashed your eyes out. Cut your throat. Aimed somewhere at little higher and a little deeper.
Instead, she gets you just above the hip and hopes the fall will do the rest. You suppose you didn't even give Cumore that much.
Your only regret is that you're dying just as much a nobody as you were when all this started.