A/N: So I posted this up a few weeks back, but then deleted it the same day I uploaded it. But, due to some encouragement from two of my friends, Thunderxtw and Junking, I've decided to re-post this little fic. I dunno if I'll keep it as a oneshot or continue it. It depends on my mood. Anyways, hope you like it. Just some emotions I wanted to let out for that special person...who should be here right now, but sadly isn't. Hurry up! ;)
For You, who captured my heart and made me believe. Always for You.
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Dear You,
My lone wolf. My wanderer. My warrior. My love.
You told me once, my beloved, that you were afraid.
I understand now. I too am afraid.
You wept in my ear, whispered your shame. You told me you loved me, and I know it to be true. You said my name, and now I am lost. There's no going back. I may anger. I may cry, I may accuse, I may suppress. But always, I am lost without you. Always, I am whole with you. There is no going back.
If you're reading this, know that I love you, and I only wish for your well being. Those words I said...I didn't mean to hurt you. I just wanted some honesty. Some communication, something we have lacked for these long months. Is it because of me that you're gone? How do I make it right?
My heart weeps. It calls for you. Can you hear it? Can you feel me, in your skin, in your hair, taste me in your voice? I am with you. But are you with me? Please say yes...I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to wonder anymore. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you, damn it, and I wish you'd answer.
I just want to hold you. Please, I just want to hold you. Cradle your head against my breast and kiss away the wounds that I know can never heal. Stay with me, stay with me, and I will hold you and whisper sweetness into your bitter. I don't know if I can stop hurting. Your pain is my pain. Please make it stop. Please just come home. I don't know if I can stop weeping. These tears are too familiar, their salt reminds me of you, and I wish it would rain again. Remember when I rain-danced for you? Remember that summer? I am afraid and I'm worried. Tell me what to think.
Until you return, these letters won't stop.
You. It's all for you. It's all because of you.
I am waiting. I am waiting.
Love,
Me