Song by Aly & AJ. song fic/drabble. I own nothing but the plotline.
Your looking straight at me
The things you like more are from me
Somehow I find it attractive
That you won't censor anything
She's a whirlwind of emotion, and has been the entire time I've known her. Her emotions are never consistent, they're as raw and uncensored as late night television. She isn't afraid to tell me when she's angry, especially since I'm usually the cause of her frustration.
With you there is no filter
To sugar coat what is said
Even though I like your honesty
It won't lead me to your bed so to say
I have never, for one moment found a problem with how honest she is. It's when she warps the truth into some kind of fairytale that makes me feel the need to bring her back to earth. I realize none of my attempts will make her mine. I'm not as immature as she thinks.
Go ahead and say it
Even though you know it makes me uncomfortable
Go ahead and say it
If you must make me blush
I would never admit to it, but she makes me feel more human when she's angry or honest with me. It gives me this rush and I can't explain why. It's as if I want her to yell at me so I can at least have some kind of emotional value in her life.
You are so transparent
The farthest thing from perfect
Once again I am left out of breath
On the edge of losing it so to say
She tries so hard to be perfect, but I can see right through her façade. I can see how hard she tries to fool the world. I wonder if anyone even believes that mask she wears is her. I don't, not even for a second. But, honestly, she never needs to wear that mask around me, her imperfections make her flawless. That is, if you ask me.
Please take me under with you
But I will only let you go so far
It can be a secret
You know what our boundaries are
She has no idea how I feel and some days, I'm not even sure I want her to ever find out. I love the fire she gets in her eyes when she's angry. I love the way she tries so hard. I love it when she thinks she has the world figured out, only to realize, she's a fifteen year old girl and she will probably go through life never figuring out it's true meaning. Sometimes I think being so close to her and not being able to have her is the better deal. But I'm a fifteen year old boy and, contrary to popular belief, I will probably go through love never figuring out its true meaning.
Derek's POV
Derek/Casey
R&R.
-sarahellen.