Peeta

When my world is falling apart, when there's no light to break up the dark, that when I look at you. When the waves are flooding the shore, when the waves are flooding the shore, that's when I look at you.

~ When I Look at You, Miley Cyrus

Pain, is all I feel in my leg, and it feels like my brain came loose and is rattling around in my head, and all I can manage to think in it is: Where am I.

As I get up from the silky white sheets of the bed I was lying on I bring my head up and look around. The walls are white, it looks as if there isn't a door and it seems I'm trapped, but this place is a whole lot better than the Capitol prison, constantly being tortured and made to tell them things I don't know. It changed me, in to someone else, someone who has to do everything to fight, to win, and losing is not something that can happen. My training to become better at fighting, hunting, and everything in between. Just as I'm thinking this I hear a knock on the door, the door I can't find or see, but I know there is a way to get in and out, even if I can't see it.

"Come in." I say, The door opens and I see Katniss walk in my room.

"Hi Peeta." She says with a small smile on her face.

"Hey, Katniss." I say and give her a grin, which makes her smile.

"Um, you alright now, you've been in a coma for a week." She says. This shocks me, and I don't know how to react without sounding like a babbling idiot.

"Oh," is all I manage to get out, but I have to continue to make her feel better, I am doing this for her after all. "Well I feel completely fine now." I say and give her a smile, the one I give her when she's upset or sad or just needs to feel better when life is hurting her.

She smiles at me and says, "That's great,"

She looks like a little girl who is about to get some candy, sort of like Prim. This is where I can see her innocence, the shape of her eyes and face, big bright smile (when she does smile), the look she gets on her face as I lean in and… I erase this thought form my mind, because she's probably gotten together with Gale by now. She's been with him here long enough to be with him, I told her too anyway.

"Can you stand up?" she asks me, "Do you need any help."

"No, I'm fine I can get up, I still have the support in m-" I cut myself off because I feel different, not different in a bad way but in a… good way. I look down and see my leg, it looks like I have a brand new real leg, not a fake Capitol one, but a real brand new leg. I dart my eyes up to Katniss and she's grinning at me.

"What's this?" I ask her with obvious excitement in my voice and I stand up easily, without having to hold on to the bed rail.

"It's till prosthetic, it's just that District 13 thought we would have some injuries when we came down from our Districts and had to make up [prosthetic leg and arms and stuff that look, and feel real. So it will be easier to join in the rebellion. Just like Haymitch said we need everyone in the rebellion."

The only thing I get out of what she said was that we're in District 13. "Wait a sec, we're in District 13?" I ask her

"Yeah, we've been here for a while now."

"Huh… well, you want to get out of here now?" She nods her head in reply.

As I get out of the shiny white hospital, I'm shocked by what I see. There are buildings, here underground that reach up so tall, like one of the buildings in the Capitol, but it looks more, what's the word, modern. I didn't think it was possible for a place to out rank the Capitol in technology, but this place does, by a long shot. I start to relax and the tension I had over the last 5 months starts to pass, and I look at Katniss, the only thing I could look at and feel like everything's all right, even when it's not. She catches me staring at her and stares back, but there's this indescribable softness in her eyes that I've only seen a couple times, in the cave when we went to the arena for the first time, and on the beach when we were in the Quell. Katniss looks mature compared to the last time I saw her 5 months ago, she also looks more worried and troubled, but I think I can manage to fix that, or try to mute it a bit. When I step in to a house I didn't know I was walking in to I see Katniss's mother, Prim, Haymitch and Finnick. They are all sitting around a big round table and they look up at me.

"Hi," Prim is the first to say, then there's a domino effect of Hello's, I exchange a glance at Katniss asking: What's going on. In response she nods over to the table motioning for me to listen. "So what's the plan." a voice comes over form the doorway, I glance over to see who it is, it's Gale. I can't look him in the eye. He's Katniss's and she's his, that's the way it was always going to be, I was just in the way, but it's what Katniss wants and I accept that. I love her so I have to let her be happy, so I have to be happy and move on for her, or I'll keep hurting her, making her feel guilty and I don't want to do that to her, she's my life. All I have to live for now, especially since my family is dead, only one of my brothers survives, Joesh survived, I don't know how he got out but, he did. My last bit of family, now is the only time I know what it feels like to lose a family member, sure I lost Katniss to Gale but at least she's happy. At least she's happy, at least she's happy. I just have to keep telling myself that, so I won't turn in to a possessive freak, for someone who isn't even mine.

"Well, first of all we need undercover agents." Haymitch says.

The first person to put up their hand is Katniss, "So there's Katniss, anyone else?" then Gale puts his hand up. I feel I should put my hand up to, but I would be in the way. "Wait!" Katniss's mom says, "Katniss can't go, not with-" She's cut off by Katniss covering her mothers mouth to silence her. "I don't think I can go, actually." She says as if she's trying to hide something, something important. I see her look at me in the corner of her eye.

I quietly raise my hand and say, "I'll go."

"Okay, so since we only need 2 people it's going to be Peeta and Gale," I hear Haymitch give a low chuckle, and I can just barely hear, "Can't wait to see how that works out."

As I'm packing I can here someone come in, it's Katniss. "Hey, so. You're going to be going. With Gale…" she says and has this worried look on her face, because she knows he doesn't exactly "like" me, so I try to lighten it up a bit. "Don't worry, I won't let him beat me up." I give her and grin that she returns a side ways smile that makes me feel a bit better.

"Oh, right. Haymitch told me to tell you that there's going to be a strategy meeting."

"'Kay, what time is it at?"

"He said 7:00, and remember to tell me when you're going okay?"

"Yes, of course." I say giving her a kiss on her forehead before I remember I can't do stuff like that anymore, but she doesn't seem to mind she just looks up and gives me a small smile., it makes my heart ache, because it just reminds me that she's not mine. "I have to go give the message to Gale now." She says and waves goodbye at me. I wave back. Goodbye.

I hear a knock on the door and expect it to be Katniss, coming to tell me that it's 7:00, but it's not. It's Gale.

"Common, or we're going to be late." He says then starts to walk away, but then he looks back to see if I'm coming, "well come on," he says sounding exasperated

When we walk in I see Haymitch, only Haymitch, sitting there at the same round table waiting for us.

"Come sit down" he says gesturing to the table, and we do and he puts his hands flat out on the table and beings to talk.

"I think you both probably know that one of you might not make it out." We both nod, "That's the reason Katniss couldn't go, with her being pregnant and all." Wait… what!? All I can think about now is Katniss being pregnant, I glance over at Gale and he looks away, that's why he doesn't look at me, because Katniss is having his baby. It's starting to make sense how Katniss seems more fragile than before. Now I know what I have to do, get Gale back alive, I just keep repeating: As long as she's happy, as long as she's happy, and move on as fast as I can.

"Good so now that we got the tough-but-not-tough part down we'll start with our strategy to get you in the Capitol, and I came up with a perfect plan, disguises." Don't say what I think you're going to say, don't say it. "You're going to disguise yourselves as Capitol citizens." And he said it. But of course whenever you don't want someone to say something, it's always the thing they're going to say. I'm not aware that I actually groaned.

"Yes, I know torture right? But you get to pick what you look like and it won't permanent." Then Haymitch considers what he just said, "well, except for the tattoo's, so choose them wisely."

Here's our plan: Get a good, believable Capitol disguises.

Learn the accent right down to the hiss on the "s"

Make friends, and no enemies, be discreet and unnoticeable.

Find the others (AKA: Annie getting a picture from Finnick and Cinna turns out he was a big part of this rebellion plan, and we need him)

I walk back to my room and well, nod a goodbye at Gale and crash down on my coach (yes I have my own couch in this room) when I see a girl come in, she pop's her hip and grins at me. She has light pink hair, silver eyeliner, she's wearing a white little (very little) shirt that shows off her stomach, that has a purple and black butterfly tattoo on it. "Hello," I say slowly and steadily as if she was a deer about to run away.

"Hi, I'm your coach, now you can show me where Gale's room is." She doesn't ask, she requests, not demands, she says that sounds too harsh. Now I have no idea where Gale is staying so I have to ask Katniss.

I listen I before I knock to see if it's too quiet and she's sleeping, but I hear gagging noises and the flush of a toilet. Morning sickness, so she is pregnant. I knock on the door not too soft but not too hard too. I hear rustling around like she's trying to clean or something before she gets the door, "It's me." I say loud enough so she can hear.

She runs to the door, "Hi?" she says, unsure of why I'm here.
"Do you know where Gale room is?" I ask her.

"Yes, but I would have to go with you, I don't know the room number or anything." So I nod at he to follow me.

Now we start our Capitol training,

T/N: Thanks for reading, no hate comments please, but I don't mind critism, to help me be a better writer, tell me what you think. If you have any other ideas for next chapters and what yo think about the whole thing. thanks!! Oh yea and I'm sorry about the whole Miley Cyrus song in the beginning but it's such a good Katniss/Peeta song. There will be better ones i promise.