World behind my wall
A/N: So, I got into Tokio Hotel. StJimmyHasSinned is happy. Their songs have been giving me more Johnny/Jimmy ideas. Seriously, if you haven't heard of them (which is reasonable; they are a German band), give them a chance. I got Steph into them (kind of working on it). So ya, another one shot anyone?
It's raining today
The blinds are shut
It's always the same
"Johnny!" Will called out. "Come on, buddy, we're gonna hit the bar."
I noticed that Heather was near his side. Now, I didn't want to go. "Nah, dude, it must be the weather, but I been sick," I said lying.
Well, now that's when I didn't find him…
I tried all the games that they play
But they made me insane
"Maybe," Tunny whispered. We were outside of 7-11. I had a can of beer in hands, searching for girls. "We'll find one for you, man."
I'm gay, though. No one ever understands that I couldn't find him in Jingletown.
Life on TV
It's random
It means nothing to me
"Well," Tunny told me, "I'm joining the army!"
"Wait, what?" I mumbled under my breath. "Why?"
"Well, I saw an ad on TV…"
That never caught me. I seen a lot of porn on TV; it never meant anything to me…Well, until now…
I'm writing down
What I cannot see
Wanna wake up in a dream
There was a journal I keep. Of course, I brought it along to me to the city. I look back on it now. Still finding that one I love was written on mostly ever page. There was also a page of me describing someone to love. It was as if I have awakened from a dream.
Oh
They're telling me
It's beautiful
"Johnny," Will told me. "I love Heather. I mean, I can't live for the city with her pregnant."
"Well, love makes us does crazy things, I guess." I said, guessing.
Will smiled, patting me on the back, "You'll feel it soon."
Well, who knew Will would be right?
I believe them
But will I ever know
The world behind my wall
I looked out the window. The raindrops from outside were falling. I keep writing in my journal and playing guitar. I really never went out there. I was always afraid of love.
Why was I? Was it cuz of heartbreak? Well, I know he can never break my heart.
Oh
The sun will shine
Like never before
I finally open those dusty windows. The sun gleamed across my face. Maybe, today will be the day…
It was the best choice I made.
One day I will be
Ready to go
We had to leave Will behind. Heather got pregnant. "Ready to go, Johnny?" Tunny said.
"Hell, yes!" I yelled. I was finally getting out of Jingletown. I was getting ready to go to the city.
Yet, when we got there, Tunny left for war. I walked alone the streets. I finally ran into him. "Woah, hey, kid," He said to me. "I'm St. Jimmy."
Best moment ever of my life…
See the world behind my wall
Jimmy was very attractive. His eyeliner under his eyes made mine look like an idiot. He had half shaved head; the hair was black, dropping down his eye. His nails were painted black with some rings on them. He wore a tank top with a leather jacket covering it and skinny jeans. He was perfect.
He's is still mine.
Trains in the sky
Are travelling
Through fragments of time
They're taking me to parts
Of my mind
That no one can find
I admit everything to him. My dreams were the 1st thing. I told him also about growing up with a stepfather and a mother. Both hated me too much. Jimmy told me he had the same kind of life. We both smiled.
"Are we, you know," Jimmy gulped, "met to be?"
"I-I think so. I have dream of you before…"
We were both right.
I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl
On my knees to know it all
"Jimmy," I said today. It's only been a week since we have been dating. "Tell me everything you know about love…"
Jimmy turns to me, "Why must you ask, Johnny, dear?"
"Well, Jimmy, you are my 1st love…"
Jimmy leans down and kisses me. "Then, you know already…"
I'm ready to heal
I'm ready to feel
My heart has finally heal ever time Jimmy hugs me. I feel a sparkle ever time our lips touch. I hear his moans every night in bed as I push harder. It was as if the world has stop for me and Jimmy ever time we did something lovely.
Oh
They're telling me
It's beautiful
I believe them
But will I ever know
The world behind my wall
"Do you feel its love at 1st sight?"
"Did you find someone?"
"Are you still a virgin?"
"Are you homosexual?"
"Who's the lucky guy?"
"You are dating an addicted?"
Who cares is a better question. Love is anything.
Oh
The sun will shine
Like never before
One day I will be
Ready to go
See the world behind my wall
It's as if the world was waiting for me to find Jimmy. We work perfectly together. We were there for each other now every single hour. We grew up in broke families. Every day we kiss, we sex, we hug, we get high, we drink, we do everything.
See the world behind my wall
Who really knew there was someone waiting for me?
See the world behind my wall
Who knew it was gonna be a recovering drinker and druggie?
See the world behind my wall
It's not been 4 years; who knew we were gonna get married?
I'm ready to fall
I fall in love with my future husband. I fall into his arms every day.
I'm ready to crawl
On my knees to know it all
I was on one knee that day under the fall leaves. I took Jimmy's hand. "St. Jimmy, please, oh dear, please marry me. I need you in the rest of my life."
Jimmy got teary eyed, "Of course, Johnny. Oh my god, of course!" I got up and he grabs me for a hug, "Yes, Johnny, you have found me."
"What…do you mean?"
I'm ready to heal
I'm ready to feel
He kisses my lips. "I mean, I been waiting for someone like you."
"Jimmy," I whispered.
"Johnny, promise me you'll never leave me."
My eyes started tearing, "I will never…"
Oh
They're telling me
It's beautiful
I believe them
But will I ever know
The world behind my wall
A/N: Review please! And since Tokio Hotel has inspired me for more AI one shots, look out for more!