Wow, my first song fic. Well, since I'm having a little writer's block with my other InuYasha fic, Daughter of a Monster, I thought I should try something new. I was listening to Losing Grip, by Avril Lavigne, and this scene just came up. Very angsty, with a lot of sorrow. This is mainly a suicide fic, so if this makes you uncomfortable, please discontinue reading.
Are you aware of what
You make me feel, baby
"InuYasha!" Kagome exclaimed. "Why are you so mean to me? I just want to be your friend!"
Right now I feel invisible to you
Like I'm not real
"Feh, I don't need you." InuYasha smirked. "You're just a stupid girl."
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
"You mean nothing to me. All you are is a shard detector. You can never measure up to Kikyou." InuYasha turned around and looked strait ahead, missing the pained look on Kagome's face.
Here's what I have to say
I was left to cry there
"I hate you InuYasha!" Kagome screamed, tears streaming down her face.
Waiting outside there
"Does it look like I care?" InuYasha asked.
Grinning with a lost stare
Kagome pulled the chunk of the Shikon no Tama she had around her neck and threw it into the trees.
That's when I decided
InuYasha watched the shard fly through the air and land out of his sight. "Why the hell did you do that, you stupid bitch?!" he exclaimed, glaring at Kagome.
Why should I care?
Kagome gave him no answer. Instead, she walked in the direction of Kaede's hut, where Sango, Miroku, and Shippou were waiting for them.
Cause you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone
"Answer me!" InuYasha yelled.
You need to listen
I'm starting to trip
I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone
"Why?" Kagome asked. "I mean nothing to you."
Kagome sat by the fire. Her eyes wandered to where Shippou laid curled up in her lap, where Sango and Miroku laid, Miroku's hand dangerously close to Sango's bottom. Then she saw InuYasha, sitting up in a corner. She looked back to the fire.
Am I just some chick
You placed beside you
To take somebody's place?
'Every time InuYasha looks at me, did he see Kikyou?' Kagome mused. 'Am I just her replacement, her fill-in?'
When you turn around
Can you recognise my face?
'Does he even know the difference between 'Kagome' and "Kikyou'?'
You used to love me
You used to hug me
'I used to think I was more than some stupid girl to him, like he felt the same as I did. I guess I was wrong.'
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok
Kagome placed the sleeping kitsune by her side then buried her head in her arms.
I was left to cry there
Silent tears of sorrow and pain coursed down her cheeks.
Waiting outside there
'All I ever wanted was for you to be happy, InuYasha. Does it really have to come to this?'
Grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided...
Standing, making no noise, Kagome slid out of the door of the hut. She was greeted by nice, cool air.
Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
"Maybe it is for the best…" she murmured.
You need to listen
I'm starting to trip
I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone
"Nobody understands."
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Kagome was running for the cliff, images of her time in the Feudal Era flashing before her eyes.
Shippou greeting her every time she came back from her time.
Miroku always groping Sango.
Sango hitting him with her boomerang, knocking him out.
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
InuYasha. Saving her from youkai. Travelling with her to search for the Shikon shards. Always pushing her away.
Open your eyes
Open up wide
'Why, InuYasha, couldn't you see what you were doing to me?'
Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
She reached the cliff.
When I was scared
"If I die, Kikyou will have all of her soul, and InuYasha and her can be happy forever."
I was so alone
She walked to the edge.
Why should I care?
"There is nobody to save me, this time."
I'm starting to trip
She jumped. Watching the ground come nearer and nearer, Kagome remembered one thing InuYasha told her.
"I'll always protect you."
I'm losing my grip
As the ground came within yards of her face, Kagome had one last thought.
'You couldn't protect me, from yourself.'
And I'm in this thing alone