Part I: The Beginning - Chapter I: The Power of Realization
"Serena", Blair shrieked from across her bedroom to the lavish bathroom, where Serena was applying ample amounts of her Dior, DiorShow Mascara and NARS eye shadow.
"Yes, Blair", Serena sighed as she stood to see Blair critiquing herself in the body-length mirror once again, staring back at her was a petite young girl in a knee length black Phillip Lim dress.
"Do you like this one better?" Blair asked, Serena had been through this several times tonight and probably thousands of times in the past.
"B, I have told you several times that all of them look gorgeous on you. But I am taking a personal liking to the red Valentino it is classic, just like you!" Even though as demanding as Blair could be Serena just saw it as one of her little antics that she had always dealt with and as long as Blair was happy so was Serena.
"Well I agree that it suits my classic demeanor, but I think I like the Phillip Lim better, the Valentino needs to be for an important event, wouldn't you agree?!" Blair liked making Serena pick an outfit and doing the exact opposite just to see her reaction, which always happened to be low key.
"Alright B, if that is what makes you happy then I support your decision all the way!" Blair never understood why Serena would never second guess her after the lengthy process she had put her through; sometimes she just wished that Serena would be more assertive.
As Blair moved on to picking the perfect pair of heels, Serena slipped into her light pink Marchesa dress and was thinking of what this end of the year party would hold, due to the fact that she hadn't been feeling very social lately because of all the gossip that had been released from Gossip Girl. Her and Blair had recently had a disagreement, in which Blair blamed Serena for causing all of the issues with Gossip Girl lately, but had made-up like with so many other previous disagreements. It usually took some time for Blair to forgive Serena, but she always found some way to let her back into her life.
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Once Blair and Serena had arrived at The Palace everyone else was already there. "I cannot believe that we are late!" complained Blair.
"Well it did take you four hours to figure out your perfect ensemble!" explained Serena lightheartedly, a small smirk forming at the corners of her mouth.
"Whatever! I am the only one who matters here anyways, so why should I care!" Blair always made excuses for herself that always made her feel better, even though it might not be the whole truth, but she could still lie to herself. Serena just rolled her eyes at Blair's conceited behavior; she always thought that it was funny how Blair could make just about any situation about herself.
Once through the doors they both headed straight to the bar, Serena ordering a Cosmopolitan and a Martini made with Gin and extra olives for Blair, just the way she has always liked it. Blair thanked Serena for her drink and then began to make her way through the crowd, while Serena stayed sitting at the bar still not feeling very social which wasn't really like herself. Even though she vowed to never drink again she felt like getting drunk this night, everyone there was pretty much wasted already anyways so what was the worry?
As Blair walked away from Serena with drink in hand she had decided to get up the nerve to tell Chuck that she had some kind of feelings for him after the one night in the limo. As she made her way to Chuck she felt her heart begin to race and her palms became so sweaty that the Gin Martini almost slipped from her grip.
"Chuck" Blair said hesitantly, "I have something that I would like to talk to you in private about."
"And what might that be? If it is that you think that you are pregnant again I don't want to hear it because I can't deal with that mess!" Chuck's harsh words stung.
"No, I just really need to talk to you" Blair said this with force, yet it seemed to have little effect on Chuck because he still refused to talk to Blair.
"Blair if you have anything to say to me, you can say it in front of us all!" Blair just turned around and walked away with a pit in her stomach that now was aching to be filled with Gin Martinis, so maybe she wouldn't feel the pain of being denied and temporarily heal the ache in her heart.
Serena saw Blair's little frame making it back through the slew of classmates to return to where she had begun. Blair cued the bartender to make her a stronger drink and then retreated to the seat closest to her best friend.
"What's wrong B?" Serena questioned with concern in her voice.
"Nothing" Blair exclaimed coldly, "There must be something the matter with you for how much you are drinking, since you did claim that you were never going to drink again!"
Serena slouched into the bar, starting to feel the alcohol's effect. "I just am feeling kind of depressed lately with all of this gossip and the rumors. I just want to escape sometimes. You know?!"
"Yes I understand completely." said Blair honestly.
"How about we finish a few more drinks and then get out of here, this party isn't any fun anyway, and we can go back to your house and have our own Breakfast at Tiffany's party!" Serena seemed more excited about this than usual, Blair didn't know if it was the Cosmo or the depressed Serena talking, it was probably both.
"Sounds good to me, we could most definitely use some time to catch up, plus this party is just lame!"
As they began to walk down the street they realized that they were a little too tipsy to be walking the streets of New York at midnight. Serena hailed a cab so fast that Blair could barely blink, Blair thought that Serena could do this so fast because of how beautiful she was, even when she wasn't trying. Blair envied this and worshiped it at the same time, she wished that she could be more laid back and not have to be so polished and still be sexy just the way Serena was.
Once they were in the cab Blair confided in Serena and told her what Chuck had said to her and how she felt. "B, I am so sorry, Chuck is such a bastard sometimes, well most of the time to be correct."
"Yeah" Blair said with no enthusiasm "I just thought he was different, I thought it was different!" Blair's eyes began to well up with tears "I guess no one will ever think I am worthy enough to be with them!"
"Aww, B, don't worry, anyone with any sense would die to be with you, seriously anyone!"
Blair looked to Serena to make sure she wasn't making this up, "Do you really think so, S?"
As the cab arrived to the Waldorfs' Penthouse Serena gave Blair a smile. "I know so B, I know so!"
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Stepping out of the elevator into Blair's foyer, "Ugh maybe I shouldn't have had that much to drink!" the blonde sighed, "I am not feeling so good."
Blair looked at Serena with concern, knowing Serena's past experiences with having a little too much, and how she would nurture her back to sobriety. "I am just feeling care-free, considering the night I had." Blair stated, "It is nice to let go sometimes and just not be in so much control."
Serena was surprised to hear this comment from her best friend, Blair never wanted not to be in control, and Serena felt that she had a long night ahead of her. Maybe, Serena thought, maybe Blair was changing in some way and this was the perfect opportunity to find out what Blair was thinking.
After getting cozy on the brunette's bed and putting Breakfast at Tiffany's on the flat screen television Serena began to ask Blair about her extrinsic comment that she had made a few minutes ago, "Blair, I was surprised to hear your comment earlier, about not being in so much control!"
"Why is that?" Blair asked, even though she knew why, she just felt like having Serena explain.
"Well, B, you probably know why, but you saying that you don't mind not being in control is astounding!"
"S, I have just been feeling somewhat different lately, and after tonight at the party with Chuck totally denying me just to talk to him in private made me realize that I don't even care that much anymore!" Blair sounded like she was going to start crying at any moment.
Serena began to comfort Blair holding her while stroking her perfect locks of chestnut brown hair at the back of her head, "B, I have always loved you for who you are, and even if you are changing, you are obviously just becoming a stronger person."
Blair looked deep into the blonde's big navy eyes which gazed back into hers. "Serena, you have been the only constant person in my life, you are the only one that has always been here for me." Blair's eyes began to gleam with tears, she had now realized that the only person in her life that she had ever loved was Serena, the feelings had always been there but were suppressed by all of the other aspects of her life, and maybe the alcohol was aiding also. "You can always make me feel better, even when I had my bouts with bulimia."
As a tear began to fall down Blair's face Serena caught it and wiped it away gently with the soft pad of her thumb, "I feel the same way B, you have always been there for me, especially during those tough times when Georgina was around!" Serena didn't feel like reminiscing, "I am just so glad that you stuck by me when I needed it most!" Serena was now beginning to realize how close Blair and her had become throughout the years, even though they might fight and argue they would always find a place for forgiveness, and their history had proved this.
As Breakfast at Tiffany's still continued to play on the television, they nodded off to sleep as Serena held Blair's back up against her chest. While still falling asleep Blair realized that she might be falling in love with Serena, and though she might have not known, Serena was feeling the same way as she was.