Breathe Into Me
This is the sequel to 'Already over'
Inspired during the Soul Society Ark
Urahara's POV
The scientist finally got the only thing he had always wanted.
Warning, Urahara is a bad guy in these, well, not really bad but manipulator as ever.
Songfic
Hirako was running, it was a bad signal, his head hurt a lot, he had just finishing an argument with Urahara and, as ever, he ran away, later the blond scientist would have to persuade him to come back home but at that moment Kisuke preferred to wait a little.
And this is how it feels when I,
Ignore the words you spoke to me
He thought about the past, when Shinji was Captain Hirako from Fifth Division and he was a rookie captain with a problematic lieutenant. He had loved him since the moment their eyes met for the first time, he loved him even when he was transformed in that horrible monster, and Kisuke just couldn't imagine his world without Hirako Shinji.
And this is where I lose myself
When I keep running away from you
And, for that reason he was willing to do anything he needed to have Shinji by his side, even hurting him. It was for his own good, repeated Kisuke to himself, no one could ever look after Hirako the way he does. No one.
And this is who I am when I
Don't know myself anymore
But the excuses couldn't silence his conscience, he knew it wasn't right what he was doing, he also knew that ting up Shinji like that would cost everything in the future, but simply he couldn't live without that sarcastic blond presence, he loved him, and it hurt.
And this is what I choose when
It's all left up to me
Kisuke run a hand over his light blond hair knowing that someday he would wake up and Shinji will had already gone, but by the time, he needed his support and he will lend it. Urahara rose from the floor and abandoned his shop, to search for Shinji.
Breathe your life into me
I can feel you
I'm falling, falling faster
When he find his love, Shinji was sitting on the grass near the river. If he could sense his approaching, the vizard didn't show any emotion with that, yet he didn't move when the other blonde sat down near him. Urahara didn't spoke at first not knowing what to say, but then he started, as ever, making feel Hirako guilty. He needed the vizard back on his arms at any price.
Breathe your life into me
I still need you
I'm falling, falling
Breathe into me
Hirako had a debt of life with him, but also owned a lot of other things, he had been always with the ex captain of the fifth division in his worst moments, he had give him the gigai, a new life, and hope. He just wanted to make Shinji happy.
And this is how it looks when
I am standing on the edge
He had been always there, like an angel, taking care of him when everyone else had abandoned Hirako. Kisuke even had risked his position to help him that night one hundred years ago. Because of him, the blond shopkeeper had lost everything.
And this is how I break apart
When I finally hit the ground
With careful movements Kisuke grabbed Shinji's hand, making a little approach. When his skin touched Hirako's he could feel the vizard's tremors, and knew that the older blond was about to cry, and during that little moment the tears spent to emerge, Urahara Kisuke hated himself.
And this is how it hurts when I
Pretend I don't feel any pain
He saw Shinji cry and while his arms were surrounding the thin silhouette, Urahara couldn't shallow the lump on his throat. He would make Hirako smile again he lied to himself, knowing that only one could make him smile truly, the one who also ended the life of the beautiful blond on his arms.
And this is how I disappear
When I throw myself away
Well, he had to thank Aizen, without his treason he would have never had Shinji, and now he just had to take him home again, and that time he wouldn't let him escape.
Breathe your life into me
I can feel you
I'm falling, falling faster
Back on the shop, Kisuke looked after Shinji till the older blond fell asleep, it had been such a long day. The scientist caressed Hirako's cheek with a loving gesture, while with the other hand lightened his pipe, he still thinking about their relationship, but again thought that being with him was the best for Shinji, he would never let anything happened to him, well, never again.
Breathe your life into me
I still need you
I'm falling, falling
And then, when he was looking Shinji's naked back, Urahara wondered to himself if he would regret someday his own decisions.
Breathe into me…
Breathe into me
I hope you'd enjoy.
Again the lyrics are a bit like Shinji's POV.
I hope I'll write the third part soon.