N/A:
Here I am trying once more. ^^
I woke from the dream in a cold, cold sweat
I was full of doubt and deep regret,
Suddenly it was so clear to me...
Baka Kagome.
— She was very brave... Kagome.
I frown. Those wet things spring to my eyes and I use my sleeve to quickly hide them. I'm aware that she is looking at me with the corner of her eyes.
Kikyou, by my side, is watching the flames devour Kagome and the Shikon no Tama. Something aches right there: in my chest. I want to touch it, but my body just can't move!
— I think I will never be able to love you like that, InuYasha. — she sound calm as always — I would never give up on my soul just to assure your happiness. At least not in that empty body, with all that hate and coldness eating me alive... If that's what I was: alive. — maybe she smiled... I decide not to look — Still... I can feel it now... Kagome's love inside me. Warming me up. Making me human. Making me brave.
Her brown eyes look at me behind that dark bang as if they were terrible hurt... And also merciful. She even looks like my Kikyou. I try hard, in my mind and in my heart, to reach out my old feelings for her. Tsc. Damn... I just hate when people feel sorry for me. I just hate when they look at me that way... As if I needed any pity!
It aches more know. I turn way, hiding my tears from her sight one more time.
— Gah! What do you mean, Kikyou?
You have your body, soul, truth and peace. Naraku is gone. You know what really happened by that time. Shikon no Tama is gone too.
What do you want?!
Kagome is gone. I couldn't stop her. I was too busy fighting Naraku when she... She...
Baka! I'm shaking.
I hear Kikyou's sigh and for a moment I think she can't find an answer.
She know it as much as I do though. She's touching me. Here... In my elbow. Her hand is so delicate... But Kikyou never seemed fragile to me. To be honest, secretly, she creeps me out. No. The things she made me feel creeps me out... That will never change. I'm sure...
... Kikyou is the reason Kagome is dead.
No.
I'm the reason.
Be happy.
Oh... What's that? I can still hear her inside me?
Kagome... Speak again...
... Please...
Kikyou's fingers thighs around my elbow at the same time that Kagome's voice tells me, over and over, inside my mind and heart, to be happy. Destroy Shikon no Tama was my choice. Without the option "become a youkai or even a human", I took time to realize what I really wanted... Actually, I still don't know.
The question I made to Kikyou, now I see, reflexes my own conflict.
What do I do now?
Be happy... InuYasha.
Kikyou now is touching my other elbow too and stares at me face to face. There's no such thing as coincidence, right? I look deeply into those eyes with my own eyes widening and shaking and a scream fighting to scape thought my throat. Why... They are saying something to me. Together. Same things with different ways and at the same time! Why? How?
I moan and suddenly bring Kikyou next to me by the hand. Her chin is now on my shoulder and I can feel her surprise. One of my hands is in the end of her back and the other on her nape. With my cheek pressed against her hair, I fight against the urge to close my eyes, hugging her body tighter and tighter against mine.
The smell... Ah... I keep fighting to keep my eyes open 'cause... 'Cause...
I need to see Kagome.
And there she is.
You're welcome, InuYasha.
I love you.
— I love you, InuYasha.
...
...
... Kikyou...
... Kagome...
... No...
... Are you...
... Crying?