I dun own Inuyasha. How do I know...I don't know, actually... Because...Oh yeah! Because if I owned him, I'd own Kagome, and that would be kinda wrong.... And besides I have no tollerance for all of the work it must take to animate all of the episodes. So that's how I know:P ---------------

It's a beautiful day, but I can't take the time to see. As soon as I do, they will see that I have been lieing. Everyone will. I can't allow that. And so I ignore the beauty surrounding me.

I can't help what I do. It's the only way to protect her. Surely it wasn't an act when it started, but I've grown. And yet I can't show it. If anyone found out, they'd realise I'm far smarter than I pretend I am. They'd figure out that my blunt attacks were ploys to keep them blind. They'd know I could see each trap they set, because they always make them so obvious. But if I made it obvious I knew, they would be able to find other things, too.

And I want to protect her at all costs. Even if the only way to be safe for certain is to push her away, to hurt her myself. Gods, how I'd rather rip my own heart out, and feed it to a wolf than smirk as I do, and watch her cry. Rather than placing the mask of anger and cruelty on every day. I can see what I do to her, and I know I hurt her, but there is no other way to keep her safe. I just wish I could tell her I cared for her, and not Kikyou. Damn, I hate making her think I care about Kikyou more than I do her. But in truth I could never love Kikyou like I do her. I know Kikyou only wanted to get rid of the jewel, and make me a human, so she would be spared the ridicule of having a filthy half-breed mate.

Because that's all I am. A half-breed. And it doesn't bother her. She doesn't see me as anything different. She sees me as another person. No matter how many people are against it.

But I cannot show her I love her. I can't act mature. I can't make them understand. Because if they did, they could hurt her. And if they hurt her, I'd never be able to forgive yself. I already can't forgive how I treat her, but keeping her safe physically is what matters. I can't hold her like I long to. I can't comfort her very well, either. If anyone sees I care, they'll hurt her. Just to hurt me.

So I'll watch, but only when no one is watching me. Atleast I can see her, hear her voice, hold her ever so often, convincing her it's because she's slow. Atleast I can have her in one way. I can assure whe has a good life, even if I'm not a part of it. I want her happy, yes, but more so I want her safe.

There are times my emotion shows through, but thank gods it isn't long enough to notice. Kouga, he makes me jealous. The one emotion I can't mask around her. Jealousy. Damned wolf all lovey dovie on her setts me off. I can't help it. There are times I have to follow my heart, too. But even after I push her away, keep her in the shadows. It's for her own good. Calling her names that hurt me as baddly as it does her. But atleast she's safe, because if she died...

The only thing I hope is that she can forgive me. That she will understand one day, and be able to realise how truelly sorry I am for what I do to her. Because I hate doing it to her. Please Kagome, forgive me. I'll tell you one day that I love you, I promise. I don't like hurting you, I truelly don't. So please, let me live in regret, with you safe, until Naraku or I have been slain. Because that is the inevitable outcome.

Building a smirk again upon my face, I glance around, secretly observing natures beauty, though I can't tell them. So, with a scoff, I bark at them to hurry up. Atleast she is safe....

---------------- I always wanted to do this fic, so I'm really happy I finally did. Reveiw, please:)