As I have known him for many years, it was quite obvious to me, that he was dying inside. Each time he lost someone close to him, it caused him to lose another part of himself.
When Morse died, part of him left, and made him harden underneath his exterior.
When his wife died, a huge part simply vanished only managing to keep together because of his children and a lot of beer.
But in the end, what pushed him over the edge, was when his first sergeant died. It came clear to people like myself, what was going on between him and Hathaway and had started not long before Hathaway got shot. Then, when he had been shot, and Hathaway started to fade, he broke into piece in front of everyone. He clung to James, after I had tried to save him, but I couldn't. It hurt me to see Robbie like that.
Afterwards, he began to withdraw away from everyone else, and into himself. He focused all of his energy into his work, and he barely slept at all. He refused to get another sergeant, leaving James' desk exactly as it was the way he'd left it on that fateful day. It hurt me that he didn't seem to care about his own welfare,
He ate only when he had to or the Chief Super or myself had half-forced him to, he went home only so that he could change, and grab a few hours of sleep. He was slowly killing himself.
A few months after James died, he didn't turn up for work, so I volunteered to go and see where he was. And when I got to his house, the door was unlocked, so I went on in, and made my way upstairs. He was lying on his bed, looking asleep, except for the deathly pallor I have come to know so well.
It was an overdose, he'd written a letter and left it by the glass of water on his bedside table. It read;
Dear Laura (as you're probably going to be the one to find me),
I'm very sorry, I recently realized that I seem to be cursed and that I manage to hurt people close me. I thought it was about time that I ended the curse. Please tell the kids that I'm very sorry, and I hope you can forgive me one day.
Robbie Lewis
I had to be the one to tell his children, but I can understand why he did it, it was for the children. I hope they got that.
Heres to you Robbie Lewis
A/N Hi, this is my first fic, and it's only been read by my sister, who thought it was okay, but I'd love to know what you think.