"Miranda, let's not talk about what I've done before." Matt placed another tender kiss on her lips. "Let's focus on what we're doing now."
"If Lizzie knew about this, she would kill us both."
"Damn right she would."
"She's way too busy riding Ethan's dick to notice."
Matt stopped what he was doing and sat up. Miranda followed.
"Ethan? I thought her and Gordo had something going on."
"Yeah, I thought so too. Ever since that party she's been blowing him off, and she broke things off with him a couple days ago. He was so crushed. The rest of the day she was all over Ethan."
"Well, she has been acting strange lately."
"What do you mean?"
Matt answered slowly. "Well, she hasn't said not one negative thing to me lately, and she's barely said a word to either of my parents."
"I wonder what's wrong. I've noticed a change in her too. One minute she's laughing and talking. The next, she looks as if someone died."
"Some nights I hear her crying in her sleep. I tried to see what was up one night, and she just smiled and told me it was nothing."
"Matt, we really have to get to the bottom of this. I don't like to see my best friend hurting while hurting my other best friend in the process."
"Me neither."
"If only she knew..." Matt thought.
Matt pulled Miranda close to him as the couple slowly drifted off to sleep on the large blanket. They didn't realize that all the while Lizzie was not far from them listening to their entire conversation.
Matt's Journal
I didn't tell Miranda everything. I know the exact cause of Lizzie's recent change. She's pregnant. I feel bad about keeping secrets from Miranda, but I think my sister's trust is much more important. Lizzie didn't come to me. I found out myself and confronted her about it.
You see Lizzie has been getting up really early in the mornings. Our bedrooms are connected so I can hear just about everything. She runs into the bathroom, turns on the shower, and throws up. I know she's throwing up because I peeked around the door and saw her. I didn't believe it at first. Lizzie is the most innocent, naïve person you'll ever meet. You'd think getting knocked up would be the last thing she'd do. Then I found the positive pregnancy test in the trashcan. I didn't want our parents too see it, so for once in my 14 years of being alive I took out the trash.
I knew this piece of hidden information was killing Lizzie inside. Our family is Catholic, and the thought of abortion is simply out of the question. Keeping the baby would mean everyone knowing she'd sinned. I decided to talk to her about it when we were both alone. Lizzie seemed relieved to have someone else in on the secret, and I'm glad it was me. Even though I don't show it sometimes, I love my sister, and I want us to be able to talk to each other. Ok, I'm going to stop before I start getting even mushier.
Things are going great with Miranda and I. It's still a dream to me. Me, a freshman guy, is actually dating a junior. I'm not even supposed to be a freshman, but thanks to the fact that I'm a genius (ha) I was able to skip grade eight. At first, I didn't want to leave because Melina, my best friend and girlfriend at the time, didn't want me to. Lizzie finally talked some since into me, and I decided to go anyways. Ok, that was after she broke up with me for my other so-called best friend, Lanny. I haven't talked to either other them since that day. I didn't even bother trying to get her back. One Melina makes up her mind it's final.
I wish I could tell Lizzie about it, but I don't think she'll like the fact that her little brother hooked up with her best friend. But then again, it's not like she has a say in this. I don't want to cause any more hurt and confusion.