A/N: This is something I wrote in portuguese a while ago for my sister, and decided to post here in english. Hope you all enjoy it.
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Helpless When She Smiles
When I met her, I can't say if it was love, passion, I don't know. I know that I lost myself on those golden eyes, I knew she was just like me, but her eyes, were different. She was smiling when I got in, and it was towards me. It was that way that I thought of her, with a beautiful smile, eyes sparking, for me.
She keeps the secrets in her eyes
She wraps the truth inside her lies
Just when I can't take what she's done to me
She comes to me
And leads me back to paradise
It was always like this, she would start teasing me, and when I wanted to do it my way, she would simply find a way to make things go her way. It wasn't easy to deceive her because of her visions, but there was a way and I was going to find out.
She's so hard to hold
But I can't let go
Was then that I realized, that she was my perdition, was not so long that we were together, however was more than enough for me to understand that. Every time I looked at her, there was nothing else around me, just her. When she smiled, I was completely doomed. Her way of walking, like she was dancing, hypnotized me, everything she did drove me insane, and that was just the beginning.
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts and the pain is all I wanna feel
She danced away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles
After two decades together, I was in her hands, and she knew it, every time she could, she would tell me how happy she was to have finally found me. All she needed to do was smile at me that I would do anything, gladly.
Maybe I'd fight if I could
It hurts so bad, but feels so good
She opens up just like a rose to me
When she's close to me
Anything she asked me to, I would
No way out. That was how I found myself once again, I couldn't escape, I didn't want to escape, I needed her, needed everything she gave me, absolutely everything. When we found the Cullens, I thought my need for her would diminish, that with new people around, things between us would get a little bit on the axis, but I was wrong, and as much as I tried to fool myself, I was happy about that.
It's out of control
But I can't let go
I thought I was going to lose her when she went after Edward with Bella, in Italy. If I still had a beating heart, he would be out of my chest. The moment she called, telling everyone was ok, and they were coming back, I was relieved, but it was nothing compared to what I felt when I saw her. No need for big gestures, a simple look from her was enough for me to understand that she didn't want to lie to me, she didn't have a choice, and I, once again, saw myself in our private world.
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I want to feel
She danced away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles
We were siting in the living room, looking at nothing in particular, the silence reigned in the big house. Everyone had left long ago, and there was only me and Alice. I never cared to be alone with her, on the contrary, I always like very much when it was just the two of us and no one else, but she was weird, there was something wrong and she didn't want to tell me. Although able to channel her feelings, she, somehow, could block the truth.
She looked lost on her own little world, like she was having a vision, but I knew she wasn't. When I decided to go out for a walk, or even to hunt, she was right there standing before me with her most dazzling smile, wrapped me in her arms and decided that I didn't want to live ever again.
When she looks at me
I get so weak
She is more than happy with the newest family member, Renesmee, Alice says that she is her little doll. I love to see them together, they look more like two kids and not an adult and a child. After Nessie goes to bed, she comes to me, and with no needs for words, she asks me to follow her, I don't care where to, I go wherever, as long as she is with me, and allows me to envision her sweetest smile.
I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I want to feel
She danced away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles