Title: To Dream of Dreams
Disclaimer: Me no own, You no sue
Warnings: language, shonen-ai
Notes: set during vol 6
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You dream of motorcycles and beach birds and Dai's hot fingers tracing your face.
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You dream of Eunhyung and then you're vomiting and shaking and crying and heading toward the phone because you still pretend that Dai will answer if he knew that you were really in trouble this time.
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You dream of blood and forks and how Dai looked like nothing more than a wounded animal as he turned to you, I said let's get outta here, and you sometimes dream that you had just said Okay instead of turning your back on him and everything that he stood for.
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You dream of motorcycles and beach birds and Dai's ice-cold fingers wrapped around your neck, choking the life out of you because he trusted you, loved you, and you betrayed him to go back to that other life you both thought had been given up.
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You wish that you could give up Eunhyung, but the truth is: you're afraid. You're afraid that if you fully accept Dai, he'll kill you, kill you and everything you are and just suck you in and you'll never again be able to free yourself.
For now, you'll stick to dreaming. Especially the dream where it's just you and Dai on a beach, he's talking about the stupid things of life and you're just listening and there's no one else around but the sea birds. And off in the distance, a light house and a pine tree take comfort in the other's presence.
Though it's cliché, it works; and it reminds you of the good times that have long since faded away into nothing but memory.
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