Blood Lust

I let Edward Cullen -my gorgeous husband and spouse- finish his sentence.

I stared at his wonderful lips which were currently uttering words I wasn't even paying attention to.

Even after my transformation to the beautiful vampire I had become, he still 'dazzled' me.

As I switched off Trance Mode and turned on Manual I started listening to his Perfect voice.

'...And I want you to be careful Bella... it's going to be tough you know. The first hunt is always difficult.'

He'd been talking about this for hours now. It really was starting to get slightly boring.

But I was still terrified. This was my first hunt. It was gonna be one hell of a challenge.

'I'm scared. No. That really doesn't describe it too well. I'm petrified.' I Squeaked.. and started trembling - An odd human trait, I thought would have left me at my transformation.

'Oh, please don't say that.' Edward lowered his voice, ' I really don't need anymore unconvincing. I've only just convinced myself that its a good idea...'

' No, It is a good idea! Come on. I'm just being a wimp. Renesmee, is more enabled when it comes to hunting than me! I need to do this.' I replied, In denial about my apprehensive head.

'Right, As long as you think its right, that's all that matters love. I trust you. You are going to be fine... You are going to be fine...' Edward finished speaking but blatantly was whispering to himself. I could just see the look in his eyes...

'Calm down Edward. I'm going to leave Now, so you can't change your mind... Okay?!' I spoke raising my voice to an uneasy level.

'Okay. Just go. Now! Before I really do have to come with you..' He said, a panicked look appearing on his face.

I stepped up to peck his cheek and opened the door, walking out into the sky high forest, towering above me.

I decided to walk. Not run. Or not to fly. I wanted to try and take this slowly. Well as slowly as possible. I'm obviously going to have to speed up eventually.

As I very gradually increased my speed I glared into the distance. As a vampire I noticed the leaves on each and every one of the trees were visible and seemed to slowly pass me.

To an average human, I'm positive none of the leaves would be visible.

That's my opinion, though.

My human memories were disappearing quickly and rapidly. I was forgetting many things I didn't want to forget.. There were some things I won't forget... Charlie... Renee... Jessica... Mike... Ell.. Ell.. As I struggled to recall, many names were still disappearing...

I had just experienced one of the downsides of immortality.

and I'm sure I'm yet to explore many more.

But was it worth it.

Yes.

of course! I get to spend the rest of my life with the man of my dreams. I get a spectacular daughter and a family any one could only dream of.

Yes. As I replayed those positives I decided that immortality didn't take away your soul. It just lengthened it.

As I ran, I slowed down. Just as I slowed down, To my luck and astonishment, A deer caught my eye. as I turned to face the deer, I examined its exterior.

It was a mousy brown colour, with a few dots here and there. It was reasonably plump, and looked deliciously mouth watering.

As I glared, it sensed my presence and fled.

In the shock of it all, the deer left me paralysed with fear. I don't know why. The seemingly innocent appearance of the deer had taken me surprise and now i just wasn't willing enough to take it down...

The sudden occurrence had left me stunned. It had all happened to quickly.

I turned around and started to walk back to the Cullen household.

I couldn't face the thought of trying to take down another animal.

The shock of the deer had left me speechless...

A few minutes later I arrived.

I took a deep breath, another unnecessary human trait, and walked right in.

As Edward glided to my side, dazzling as ever, his perfectly shaped face frowned.

'Oh god. What happened. What happened. If anything has happened I swear...' Edward cut off as I interrupted.

' I couldn't do it. I don't know why but for some reason. I just couldn't face it...'

'But why. That never happens. What is wrong with you?' Edward replied.

'THANKS! I guess I've always been an issue ' I shouted.

'Oh stop it' Edward said, laughing.

I smiled. It was irrevocable. How could I not smile. It was Edward Cullen. He's just so... Jawdroppingly amazing.

The past events were still lingering in my head though. It was worrying me... What had really just happened... Why? and what IS wrong with me?

Suddenly a knock on the door startled me. I jumped and nearly screamed.

As I walked to the door I started my unnecessary heavy breathing again.

I grasped the door handle and opened the door.

There in front of me stood Charlie Swan. My Father, and as I stared at him,

A smell, so wonderfully delicious overwhelmed me.

The magical sense, shot up my nostrils exciting every sense imaginable.

As I looked up and down to my horror I realised,

One - That scent was being created my Charlie,

and two - I wasn't going to be able to resist.