Disclaimer: Sadly, I do not own Harry Potter. Nor do I own the song "Hurt" by Johnny Cash.
Author's note: This is a songfic about Harry after the war. Hope you like it.
"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live." - Norman Cousins
Shattered Dreams
The crunching of rubble was heard beneath his feet as the emerald-eyed man slowly walked through the ruins. As he stared out at the wreckage of the place he had once called home, Harry wondered to himself about how it had come to this, how his life had ended up this way.
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
Over half of Britain had been completely wiped out, both muggles and wizards alike. Hogwarts, where he was currently standing, had been utterly decimated. All that was left of it now was rubble from the battle that had taken place there, the one that Ginny had died in…..
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
He clenched his fists tightly and squeezed his eyes shut as the painful memories overcame him. Tears leaked out of his shut eyes as his shoulders started shaking. He slowly slid to the ground, sobbing over all that had been lost. Hogwarts, the Ministry of Magic; His friends: Ron, Hermione, Neville, Luna………he sobbed even harder.
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
Suddenly he slammed his fist down onto the ground. This wasn't fair, he thought furiously to himself as he angrily wiped away his tears. They continued to relentlessly stream down his face, regardless of his wishes. None of this should have happened. This wasn't how things were supposed to turn out. He was supposed to grow old with Ginny, and have kids. Ron and Hermione were supposed to get married and continue their bickering. After all they had gone through, they should have gotten their happy ending. Instead they had perished, along with everyone else he loved.
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If he could only go back and change things…..this wasn't how things were supposed to end. He couldn't do this on his own, he couldn't just move on with his life now that everyone had left him and he was the last survivor. After hours of sitting there and crying out his frustrations, Harry slowly got to his feet, and quietly walked out of the ruins. He smiled a slow, sad smile, one filled with pain, before apparating away. All he could do now was try to pick up the broken pieces.
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a wayFin