"There's so much things to say..." My eyes didn't look directly into his.
"Just tell me already" we were very close to each other, his eyes were specially bright that day.
"It's to early, and soon it's going to be to late".
"You just need to say it" he touched my lips in a genteel gesture. It hurted me, the touch of his frozen fingers felt wrong. He was waiting for something. I yelled at him.
"Don't want to! I hate you, but...I don't want to hate you!" I hugged him.
"Why? What did I do?" His long fingers now where passing through my brown hair, he had that metallic smell... Steel?... Maybe blood? His hands stopped on my neck.
"Everything that you do hurts me, you're doing it all the time!" I moved away from his embrace, looking into those eyes of his that were begin for warm.
"But what?! Are you crazy?!" The peaceful posture didn't disappeared, the eyebrows just raised, "I gave you a new life, I made you accept your sins and move on!" I wanted him to understand me, but what if... What if…
"No... You made me remember what I did, all that I had left behind, that part of my life that I thought I could forget!"
"What you're talking about?! All I did means nothing to you?! I accepted you when not even you wanted that monster that I'm seeing right in front of me! I'm the one who should be complaining! Just..." It seemed like he didn't wanted to talk that much.
I saw the expression on his face returning little by little to the frozen like cold manner that he always dressed.
Was he even human?
"Just love me Mumei" he pushed me into his arms again, embracing me like he was my jacket, my shield, we were so close that I could even listen his fragile heart.
Popom popom
Those words... Those words were in his mouth from a long, long time ago.
I felt them every time he smiled to me,every time he talked with me, every time that I looked in his eyes, the eyes of a tiger, of a beast, I felt them, a salty acid taste invaded my mouth clinching to my tongue, poisoning my words.
"I... I can't niisan... Not in that way…"
"You're weak Mumei" his eyes seemed crystal spheres, filled with transparent water.
"That's... What you really think uh...maybe I'm really weak... But niisan... Just... Just…"
I never had the chance to speak for real what I was thinking, never found the words to explain myself.
My brother, who I hated and beloved the most with all my heart, the one who made me the strongest fighter and the weaker thinker... Words just didn't wanted to pull out of my mouth.
"Just…"
Everything I am... For him I'm Mumei, a nameless little girl that now is also useless.
"Niisan" my mouth felt salty again, he was poisonous.
He looked at me in response to my call, I putted my hands in his big shoulders and we kissed.
It was more than every word could explain, my feelings, my pain.
You're free from my love
Those were the words that were bouncing inside my mouth, that passed to brother's mouth when we kissed, in order to make him forget about me.
We were now distant from each other, our souls weren't connected anymore.
Two individuals, for me, one goal.
Kill brother.