A/N: This is my Paul-love story. It's not related to It's fate. Please tell me what you think of it!
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight!
Prologue
She watched as the coffin he was lying in was being lowered into the ground. She held onto her best friend tight and cried on her shoulder. She thought it was all her fault. It was because of her that he died. If she just told him the truth and didn't act like nothing happened, he wouldn't be dead right now. Why was life so hard? Why did this have to happen to him? He didn't do anything wrong, he was just mad and wasn't thinking straight at that moment. She thought she could've saved him, but it was already to late.
She cried as everybody around her held onto their loved ones. They were so close and now he was just gone. She couldn't believe it. His parents cried too and stepped foreward when they coffin was all the way down now. She had to say goodbye to him, whether she wanted it or not. It had to happen. She just wanted him back, before all the drama started. It all started because of a certain person.
Right across from her stood a young man who was fighting with his self. He wondered if it was because of him that he died. He saw her crying on the other side of the hole. He wanted so bad to just go up to her and hold her so that she would be safe in his arms. Totally comforted by him, but he knew that she wasn't ready for that. She didn't even want to talk to him.
On the other side, the young man was relieved, but he knew that it was wrong. He felt bad about his death, but on the other side, this was a way to get closer to her. There were no obstacles in the way now. It was selfish of him to think this way, but he just couldn't help it. He knew that they were friends and they had some great times together, but he couldn't do anything else than think about how he could get closer to her.
She was still crying on her friends shoulder. She felt her friend tug at her hand. This was it, this was the moment to finally say goodbye to him and learn to live with it. This was going to be hard, she knew that. But what she also new, was that her friend would help her through all of this. She looked down as she walked towards the hole with her best friend. She carefully looked into the hole. Tears streamed down her face. She realized it now. He was really gone and never coming back. ''I love you'' she whispered before looking up.
That was when her eyes conected with the young man on the other side. She felt her anger start to rise and wanted nothing more than punching him in the face, but she knew she couldn't. She had to stay strong, for him. She quickly averted her gaze and looked back to her best friend who gave her a comforting smile. She hugged her tight and started crying again. This was just too much for her. She couldn't take it anymore.
The young man looked pained and watched as she slowly walked towards the hole. He saw the tears streaming down her face. It was like his heart broke into a million tiny pieces. He didn't want to see her like that. He wanted to see her smile and be happy. Just that gorgeous laugh that always made his heart melt, even though it wasn't meant for him. If he could only just walk up to her and grab her away from her friend, who was now comforting her. He knew she hated him, for what he had done to them. He felt guilty and he really meant it. He only did what he did because of her. If she'd just understand.
But she didn't get it. She didn't even want to be near him. She looked up at him and their eyes conected. He could see the sadness in her eyes, he could see the pain and the hurt. He could feel the pain, so bad that it made him want to cry too. But he was being strong in front of her. He couldn't break down here with all the people around him. He looked to his right and saw his friends. They were all watching as she cried into her best friends arms. They felt bad for their friend. They supported their friend and wanted to help. But they knew they couldn't. This was something he had to do on his own, whitout the help of his friend.
She was still crying when her friend pulled her with her again and led her to her parents. She released her friend and hugged her dad tight. Her dad knew how he important he was to hear and what an impact this had on her. He didn't want his baby girl to be sad. These years were the ones to were supposed to be the best of your life. But that all changed because he died. Her dad stroked her hair as her mother and best friend tried to comfort her while the other people went to say goodbye too.
He watched her carefully as she walked towards her parents and hugged her dad. He wished he was that person. He looked down, because he knew that she wasn;t going to forgive him anytime soon. He felt a hand on his shoulder and looked to the side. His best friend was giving him a comforting smile. He was just trying to make him feel better. That was all he could do. He looked back to her. He was craving for her. His best friend released his shoulder. 'Just a few steps' he thought. He took two steps foreward, but stopped when she walked away with her parents and best friend, but not before looking back one more time.
She walked away with her parents and best friend and looked back one more time. She looked to the young man and then to the whole. 'It's over now' she thought crying silently and then turning back.
At that moment she didn't know about the secret he was taking with him into his grave.
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