Truth Is The Hardest Pill To Swallow
A/N- This was a fan fiction that has really been bugging me for a while so I decided to heck with it! And here's the result, anyway, I don't own InuYasha or anything about the characters, but I can have fun messing with them, so that's good enough for me! Anyway, I hope you guys like this...I think it turned out rather well...it takes place after the episode- Kagome's Instinctive Choice
Here's the full summery-
Truth is sometimes the most elusive of things, it is always just under the surface, if one only knows where to look. Kagome thought that she knew what she wanted adn that she was grown up enough to follow that path. But when the truth is brought to the light, Kagome will be forced to see just how childish she has really been.
Part 1: The Problem
Kagome's Pov-
I always thought that things would be so much easier when I grew older, my life would be a walk in the park. But that is only logical for a three year old who's only worry in life is where her blanky disappeared to. It seemed that as I grew up, the adults always had it easier, because they never got bossed around and told that they couldn't do this or couldn't do that.
Ah, to be young.
Heh, I wish it really was that simple, but as I found out on my fifteenth birthday life is never as simple as it seems.
Meeting InuYasha and having the jewel break, that is what forced me to finally realize that things are harder than they seem. But still…I never was fully grown up, I still believed that it would be simple to fall in love and even more simple to have him fall in love with me.
You know, the whole, 'I Love You, I Love You Too.' Heh, if only.
I soon found that it was a lot harder than that and that love is something more than just words. Here, let me tell you how I learned this…
Flash Back-
Normal Pov-
Night was almost upon the InuTatchi and they were hurrying back to Kaede's village. As they neared it though, they noticed that something was definitely off about how quite and tranquil the village seemed.
"Stay here, Miroku and I will have a look around first."
Kagome nodded her head as she dropped off InuYasha's back, landing with a muffled 'thump' upon the still damp earth, Kagome walked over towards Sango. Shippou leapt off Miroku's shoulder and onto Kagome's as they watched InuYasha and Miroku disappear into the village ahead.
"What do you think is wrong Kagome?" Kagome shrugged her shoulders as she glanced to the side, she froze to the spot at what she saw. Looking back towards the village and towards Sango, Kagome couldn't remain in place any longer.
"Shippou will you stay here with Sango for me, I need to go somewhere real quick." Shippou nodded his head as he jumped down next to Sango, Kagome locked eyes with Sango for a brief moment before she turned and took off into the trees.
'Please tell me I'm wrong…if I'm not, what is she doing here and what about InuYasha? It didn't look like he noticed her yet...'
Nearing the tree line, Kagome slew to a walk as a soul collector flew past her. It seemed to be leading her somewhere, somewhere that Kagome was reluctant but determined to reach. Following closely with the swaying creature, Kagome sighted the nearby river.
Knowing that it was now or never, Kagome stepped out into the open and faced Kikyou.
She was standing next to the river, her hand outstretched to her side, as if she wanted Kagome to take it. Not sure what to do, Kagome approached tentatively, "what do you want Kikyou…InuYasha went,"
"I'm not here to talk with him. Please…take it, I won't harm you." Kikyou turned slightly to where her soft and strangely warm brown eyes met Kagome's.
Strangely drawn, Kagome approached and cautiously took Kikyou's hand, it was warm and soft to the touch. Shocked, Kagome turned confused eyes upon Kikyou and was met with a gentle smile.
"How…"
"That I just found out myself, after you brought me back…I was haunted by several memories that were not my own. Has the same happened to you…Kagome?"
Surprised that Kikyou had actually used her name, Kagome looked at the water, her gaze unfocusing as she recalled the memories of how Kikyou reached her death. They still made her want to cry and want to kill Naraku even more.
Sighing, Kagome turned to lock her eyes with Kikyou, "I…I saw how it happened…how you…died."
Kagome turned her eyes to look at her feet when she felt a hand touch her chin and lift her head, Kagome choked back a sob as her eyes met the sorrow filled and understanding eyes of Kikyou.
"It's alright Kagome…I, do you remember when you were dispelling the miasma from the wound that Naraku inflicted upon me?"
Kagome nodded her head, "yes, it was painful for me. Then everything went black and I started seeing things, which was when I saw what happened to you."
Kikyou smiled as she looked back at the water, "yes…I was seeing something myself, you were bitten by mistress centipede and that was when you freed InuYasha."
"That is what you saw…I see, I witnessed him being sealed and you saw him being freed. But what does this have to do with…uh, how human you've become?"
Kagome eyed Kikyou closely, looking for any sign that she wasn't who she seemed to be. A soft chuckle was her answer.
"I'm not finished yet, when I was seeing that memory of yours, I heard your voice. You were telling me not to believe it and that it wasn't InuYasha. But now that I know what you saw, I understand what you meant."
Kikyou turned to face Kagome completely, smiling sadly Kikyou touched Kagome's cheek. "It was you that made me see, I was only able to hate and yes, I hated you because you could feel it when InuYasha touched you and he could actually talk to you. That made me so angry, in fact, it made me jealous. But after you brought me back, I was unable to hate you. What you did was unselfish and loving."
Kagome couldn't stop the tears that started rolling down her cheeks as she listened to what Kikyou was saying, 'I…is this really happening? Is this even possible? Kikyou…'
Unable to hold it in any longer, Kagome released Kikyou's hand and pulled her into a hug, she continued to sob uncontrollably into Kikyou's shoulder. "Th…thank you, Kikyou. I never thought to hear something like this from you. Please tell me this is real," Kagome pulled back and looked up into Kikyou's eyes, "your alive now, aren't you?"
Kikyou nodded her head as she smiled gently, "yes I am, but there is one thing that must be done before I can become human again. The soul collectors need something to sever my bond to them, or else they will remain by my side forever."
Tilting her head, Kagome pulled back to where her hand was upon Kikyou's shoulder. "What do you mean by that, how is that possible? Can I help you in anyway?"
Kikyou turned away and looked towards the trees where Kagome had come from, her expression cold and emotionless. Kagome followed her eyes and nearly fell backwards when she saw InuYasha standing there.
He didn't look happy, in fact he looked angry as hell.
A/N- Ah...the end, heh, I hate it when the chapter comes to a close...it makes it just that much harder to start the next one...anyway, I hope you guy's will review and tell me what your take on this is. They really help and I know that Kikyou and Kagome seem alittle Ooc...but that will soon make sense...because to me...this is how they really feel. If they could just sit down and hash it out they would all be better off, but allas, that isn't going to happen now is it?
Enough of that, I hope you guys will come back for the rest, because the story has just started!
Till next time, Ja Ne!