Chapter 1

Bella's point of view

Jake had offered to take me home, probably because he was worried about me after I had jumped off the cliff. It was a quiet ride, and my mind was thinking about lots of things like how my

life would be without Jake I cringed at the thought. But should I leave things the way they are, was that fair to either of us? Would Jake move on if I tried to keep us like this, I didn't want him

to I wanted to stake a claim on him. But could I? Even if I love him but no where close to the love I was capable of, would I be able to for Jake. Jake stopped the truck outside of my house. He

seemed to be in tuned to my thoughts and know what I needed. He threw his arm around me crushing me into his warm chest, this felt nice almost like being a whole person again. He held me

together. Jake spoke first "Sorry, I know you don't feel exactly like I do." My breathing quickened, wouldn't Edward want me to be happy, even with his indifferent feelings? I thought he

would. It isn't like Edward wanted my love, I paused. So I could give it to Jake. "Jake" I said my voice was shaky. He just looked out the window. I pressed my hand to his cheek and turned his

face to face me. And then as clearly as if he was there, Edwards velvet voice whispered in my ear. "Be Happy." I froze I could never be as happy as I would be with him, but I would try. So I

made up my mind, in that instant I pressed my lips to Jake's. I pulled away to look into his eyes he just looked back shock written all over his face. I smiled "Jake, I'm ready to be happy." I

told him. He looked at me one more time and then he crashed his lips to mine, I had never experienced a kiss like this; Edwards lips were cold and hard and seemed to fit mine perfectly and

Jake's were hot and soft and I just melted into them. Our lips moved in synchronization our lips began to part and then I broke away I wasn't ready for that. Jake looked at me "Sorry I didn't

mean to, that was wrong, fast I'm so sorry." Jake began saying in a rush worry in his voice. "it's ok Jake; I'm just going to need time." I gave him a quick kiss to assure him I was ok, "do

you want to come in" I said. "Sure" he replied. I walked up to the door and unlocked it I walked in and fumbled around for the light switch. I turned on the light and went to check for a

message from Charlie. I found a note by the phone scrawled in Charlie's messy handwriting.

Bella,

Wont be home till late, pulling a double shift.

Don't forget to lock the door before you go to bed

Dad

What a surprise Charlie did a lot of double shifts since I became a lack for better words Zombie. Well I don't have to make anything for dinner, and there was left over spaghetti. Jake just ate

off my plate after I heated it up. After I was done eating leaving the rest for Jake I said "I'm going to go take a shower." He just nodded through a mouthful of noodles. I went up stairs and

walked into my room to grab my pajamas. I saw the window open so I walked over and looked out it, all I could see was darkness. I closed my window and

turned around and then I saw it.