This story is slightly different than the others I have written. Music is a huge part of my life, and sometimes I hear songs that just beckon to become stories. So, being on a Criminal Minds high as of late, I penned this tale about Spencer Reid (my fave!). I encourage you guys to check out the song, it is quite amazing. Happy reading!
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"You were the only face I'd ever known
I was the light from the lamp on the floor
Only as bright as you wanted me to be."
-"Everything We Had", The Academy Is
My mind is wandering away as the subway train pulls from the station and races down the tracks. I grip the cold pole so I don't fall with the sudden speed. Strangers keep watching me; I can feel their gazes. I wish I could disappear.
Disappear like he did.
That stupid song has been playing in my head for the past month. I don't understand why. I used to listen to it when I was a lot younger, before I came to this city. I stopped listening to it because it made me sad.
Because it made me think of what I did to him.
Better yet, what I didn't do.
The subway train stops at the station. More people get on, more people get off. I don't move; my feet are planted to the hollow floor. I am not to arrive for at least a couple minutes, so I let my thoughts wander…and the memories come flowing back.