A/n: Oh look… I'm trying my hand at Kingdom Hearts… God help us all.
Oh, Riku's P.O.V. by the way.
Disclaimer: I so don't own Kingdom Hearts, one, two, or chain of memories.
I would die for him. I would gladly lay down my life, give in to the darkness that surrounds me, let it corrupt me completely, and die, gladly, for him. If he asked me to lay down my life, I wouldn't even think twice. Such is my blind devotion. Such is the depths of my love for him. But he'd never ask me to do that, he's too kind. He's got such a naivety about him, it's amazing at times. How does he surround himself with heartless day after day and not end up corrupt. Why is he not corrupt, as I am?
Such is the difference between us. He is pure, I am evil. He is the light, I am the darkness. It scares me sometimes that I might corrupt him, but it's different. The darkness cannot exist without light, just as the light cannot exist without the darkness trailing right behind it. Right out of the other's reach. Neither corrupts the other, and both live in harmony. We are so similar, darkness and I. Perhaps that is why it was so easy for me to be possessed by Ansem; perhaps that's why I could possess him.
But, of course, Sora was skeptical it was really me. He was hesitant. Hell, he was downright scared at first. But he listened to Kairi, of course, and sensed it was truly me beneath that unfamiliar skin. Of course he listened to Kairi. Such a smart girl, she trusts her heart as much as Sora does, if not more. They make a perfect match, really they do. They are the two halves of the same soul. It's bittersweet to see them together.
I want that. I want that love. At first I thought I wanted her, I thought that I was actually in love with her. And I risked everything to keep her from what she wanted, who she wanted. I risked our friendship, Sora's trust, and the whole damn chain of worlds, all on something as shifty as a crush. On a girl.
Then I thought I loved him. I thought I could actually be good enough for such a wonderful person. Out of my league doesn't even begin to describe us. I'd watch him from afar; I'd watch him and suddenly the most mundane things seemed intriguing, as long as he was doing them. I'd follow him to the end of the world, literally. And the crazy thing is, I actually helped him. It was the single greatest moment of my life.
But now I see, I could never be good enough. I could never deserve either of them. So now I stick to the sidelines, loving both from a distance, being there for both of them.
But who's there for me? Nothing but the all enveloping darkness. My one love, my one true love.
Good bye, my Sora. I think, I really did love you… So much as someone like me can really love a person. I'm sorry, so sorry for everything. For all the horrible things I've done to you, while claiming they were best for you. They were. I'm not what's best for you, as much as I hate to actually admit that. And for a while I didn't, I stubbornly chased you, calling it love, forcing my so called love on you when you clearly didn't need it.
What have I done? What have I done…
See what happens when I try to write yaoi? …Keh. Damn this sucks.